selflessness wrote:
I have this mentality that if you can do something without accommodations it means you're stronger. I wanted to accurately test my capabilities on a level playing field, despite my handicap.
I can relate to this.
I do not use accomidations but many times have thought it would probably help greatly.
I still have continued to resist it because another part of me feels it could make it more difficult as it would alienate me more
I am unsure if it's better for people to think I'm just rude or lazy, because I plug my ears and take off many days work, or to know i have difficulties and treat me different
I have withdrawn from and dropped many a class for overestimating myself and undertaking too much
and by the end of my time at highschool I had attended around the same days of school that I also was absent, about half and half
and my college/work peers average taking around 12-18 credit hours AND work more hours than I do while it's a challange for me to manage more than half their credits while working half the time as them too
I figured I would be considered intellectually inferior, but to me these challanges are not intellegence based
I once took IQ tests online for fun and scored 135 on one that wasn't timed, but I think 110 or 95 or something much lower on a different IQ test that
was timed because it would interrupt you while your working and not let you enough time to understand what's going on!
That might sound irrelevant, but I mean it is much more irritating taking a timed test with many interuptions like in classroom with the ticking clock and other students mumbling and scribbling and flipping papers, than in the silience and leisure of your home when you can devote your focus on the problems
I don't know how typical this is to anyone, and I do not have an asd diagnosis currently
For those who went without accomidations then chose to use them, how was the difference overall (positive/negative)?
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(currently not diagnosed with asd)
AQ: 39
AspieQuiz: 139/200 ND, 53/200 NT
MBTI type: ISTJ