tbg299 wrote:
I will be starting my junior year of college and I'm feeling the overwhelming pressure already for PhD programs. I'm a math major and hopefully will be graduating with honors in pure mathematics from a state school. I want to apply to top tier graduate programs in the field
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I was the laziest person ever in high school and was unable to go out of state for college due to my social anxiety, so I'm at a disadvantage coming from a "non elite" college. I feel like graduate school is the opportunity for me to finally prove my intelligence and make my existence worth something, so if I don't get into my programs of choice, my life will be crushed.
Not sure if you'll read this, but let me make a couple of points here:
- For god's sake, enjoy your junior year and discover old and new interests of yours. Yeah, having a basic career plan is helpful. But chances of "failing" (in terms of getting into an elite PhD programme afterwards) will be incredibly high if your primary motivation for your undergrad degree is to get into a PhD programme. Enjoy learning many new things - not just maths. Enjoy yourself. And challenge yourself: socialise, train public speaking (diverse societies, toastmasters or wherever), go to parties and try to not stand in a corner all night. Talk to others. No worries, after the third beer people will not even realise what you're saying. Smile and laugh and they will, too.
- What makes you think that you will not be the "laziest person ever" in college as well?
- Last but not least, what's your ultimate purpose of a PhD in mathematics? A former flatmate of mine was enrolled for his PhD at Cambridge (UK) with a Fields Medal holder as a supervisor. He aborted the PhD after two years when he realised that he wasn't a genius. Yeah, it sounds funny. But from what I've understood and what makes much sense to me, there's really just two options for you if you want to stay in academia: a) having a flash of genius and having a huge break-through in the field which will provide you with a lifetime's reputation. You stay at a top-tier university and can do whatever you want for the rest of your life without anyone questioning you. Sounds perfect, right? The problem is, the following is much more likely to happen: you basically become a teacher and teach undergrad (and, if lucky, postgrad) students for the rest of your life.
My question is: would the latter "make your existence worth something"?
tl;dr: Don't start your Bachelor with thinking about a top-tier PhD only. Use the first one or two years of your studies to get to know yourself, to discover new subjects of interest to you and challenge yourself to succeed in social situations. If mathematics remains being your passion, go for the PhD by any means.