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As some of you on here know I graduated from college last year from the University of Cincinnati. My senior year I decided that I wanted a career in government. Funny thing about Cincinnati is that it is NOT a government friendly city in many key geographic regions in the city as well as certain surrounding neighborhoods. When I came to that decision I considered my options. If I would have stayed in Cincinnati and move up in the company that I am currently in I would experience short term relief and comfort but long term misery. If I decided to pursue the goal I am on now I would experience short term pain but long term happiness and satisfaction.


A week after I graduated is when the downward spiral started I experienced anxiety because right then and there the only source of income I had was my job which I HATED. My performance had steadily been getting worse so the manager decided to put me on night shift. I decided that would be a good idea.......From late August last year up until now I had been cut off from my fellow human beings whom I had so much in common with. My new coworkers! I had absolutely nothing in common with them. All I had at that time was the promise of my case worker at the Disability Services Office that he would help me reach my goal of obtaining a government job.........Both him and I delivered on that promise, so far............

But if I could give any advice to you younger Aspies out there it would be this. You will never stop having Asperger Syndrome. You will always need a group of people to help you out in reaching your goal along the way. But in order to get help you have to give help as well. In-between the time that I graduated and the time that my approval for the current program that I am currently involved with came in I had gone through, depression, social isolation and even had a couple of days where I had contemplated suicide. That was until I decided to attend a church of my choosing.

According to Herbert Mazlow human beings have certain needs. One of those needs is to be surrounded by others. I had ignored that need because I knew that I had changed as a person. Not only did I have feelings of anger and resentment toward my home city which had treated me like an outcast but college had changed me and brought out the best in me and it showed me where I really belonged professionally. I left my short term needs go by the wayside..........BIG MISTAKE!! ! But now I am in the process of recovering from that.