what am I supposed to feel?
I've been lazy, I was mostly a kid when I was in high school.
i have felt things like judgement coming the last year or so, and I had thought that was it, just being slow, but there's more to my issues than that, I think.
I've finally closed in on growing up. I feel kind of..uninspired.
Especially when September 7th, 2014 comes around, and...I don't go to school.
What few friends I have are mostly going to 11/12 grade in fall; I know it's not childhood anymore, but still, feels kinda weird. Need a damn job.
I don't know what goes on in my head 80% of the time, but in adulthood it's gotta stop. I need access to inspiration and consistent motivation. Humanity needs hands to rely on, and I would like a personal contribution. I need to clear my head, but ultimately, I want to become a researcher at a university and discover great things for us to progress on, like life/death and a tamed universe.
Thanks for listening, friends.
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"I watched a change in you, It's like you never had wings, now you feel so alive"