EQUAL TREATMENT

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I recently got into this thing recently where EVERYONE has been giving me the treatment that I give unto them... cash handling.. eye contacts.. posture.. verbal responses.. queer antisocial behaviorisms.. >_<

I am so overwhelmed by this thing..

Is this normal?

Normally, people don't ALWAYS give you the treatment you give to them..

It started at school and now it seems like it has progressed everywhere in my district.. this equal treatment thing..

I'm just so confused.. no one will teach/tell me why they started to do this to me..specifically.. eh.. I have a feeling that it was set up by a teacher to change the environment so that ALL insecure people.. are treated like this way..

er.. I don't know how to explain.. but there also feels like there is a "special treatment" being given to me...where the students are trying to aid me into gaining self motivation and independence.. >_< I don't like it.. and feel like people are watching me and talking about me behind my back..

Now my father is starting to become more involved in my life.. and giving me equal treatment and be queerer and do antisocial things near me.. I feel weird.. Never had a father involved in my life.. Hate the feeling.. hate change.. gr.... need help getting out of this state.. where people do not always give equal treatment.. >_<

Think Aspies have a sense of justice that doesn't exist in the real world. So expect only equal opportunity but not equal treatment. I would accept any advice or help from loved ones or friends but I wouldn't expect that help to be proportional to the help you give them.

Hi, one of three things may be happening (of course more! but I can just think of three)

You might be growing in your ability to read people and kind of ping-ponging an interaction back and forth in a positive way. I've had growth periods like this several times in my life, for example, when I got involved in peace activism. And some of it is undertrying in certain ways and going with the zen flow, and appreciating the other person as well as myself.

And you might just be noticing a streak. For example, baseball is streaky. A player can go through a good streak or a bad streak when he or she is basically doing the same thing. And the human mind does over-perceive patterns. This is both a human strength and weakness at the same time.

And lastly, teachers do get on "kicks" and trying new things and thinking it's the end-all and be-all, when realistically it might be one positive change among several. Although in this case, it does not sound like a positive change. It sounds overblown, the teacher and other students trying to make too big a deal out of it or do it "perfectly." Good grief, this would rub me the wrong way, too. Just treat me normally, as well as appreciating that I might well be able to make a number of contributions even if I'm different in some ways.