Probably the Wrong Forum...but, Love in College

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So, I am a freshman in college. I'm loving the college life, everything about it intrigues me, including the relationship aspect of it, even if its hard for an aspie like me to have relationships. And I mean actual relationships, like boyfriend/girlfriend type things.
So, anyway, this is my first year in college and I met this guy in the first week. He somehow got my snapchat name and we started talking. Nothing too serious. It's fine. Don't get hung up on the "he found my snapchat name" part because I later found out he got it from a friend. So, we were talking and I invited him over to my dorm. He came over, acted like a weirdo and sat in the corner the whole time and barely talked to me. Now, he said it was because he thought I was so beautiful that he couldn't think of words to say, that I took his breath away. So we hung out for a few days, watching TV and going to the cafeteria to eat. Then, I asked him to come over to sleep. I don't know why I asked him to sleep, but he came over and we did. When we woke up we stared at each other for awhile, looking into each others eyes, then he kissed me. It was a good kiss, but like all first kisses, it was awkward, but still good. We continued to make out then, and that was it for that day.
He started coming over every day and we would talk and watch TV and we started to kiss more and more until it finally came to me jumping on top of him one day and even harder core making out began.
This continued for a week or so. We did the same every day. Then we started going out to eat on "dates". Our first "date" was cute. To a little local pizza place, then back to my room. The usual festivities continued, but this time he started taking my clothes off. I didn't mind that too much, I was already fairly comfortable with him. OK, cool. He was spending the night, so as the night went on, we talked more and he ended up asking me to be his girlfriend. I said yes. Awesome, I have a boyfriend. Of course, being happy, we started kissing, this time it went further and further to having no clothes on at all, but not "doing it".
I feel like I am rambling, but anyway, I'm almost to the main point here, he told me he loved me before he asked me to be his girlfriend. This was only knowing each other for about two weeks. The first time he said it, I acted like I didn't hear him. Oh well.
He started telling me he loved me all the time. I finally said it back because he did some pretty huge things for me. I did love him.
This has all been happening for about two months now. He spends the night every night that he can, and we continue our "festivities" as much as possible. But, lately he has been pushing me to have sex. And I don't want to...now. I'm not saving myself for marriage, but I don't want our relationship to just be about sex. I tell him this and he says he understands. That's awesome. And lately he has been talking about getting married.
Now, I don't want to put everyone into a hissy fit about this, but at this point in time, I do love him, and I do think I want to marry him.
We have this thing, when someone says "I love you" then "I love you, too" the other person will say "I love you more" and then "no, I love you more, more", he says that he loves me more. Honestly, I'm kind of scared that he does love me more. Like I won't be able to show him how much that I do love him. What if we do get married and I realize I don't love him as much as he loves me. I promised myself I would do everything in my power to not get divorced if I got married.
I don't know what to do with this anymore. I probably left out several important details, and I'm sorry if I did, but I'd like some advice on what I should do in this situation. If you have any questions about more details PM me. I'm close to being desperate.

I can say, I've been there done that.

You've brought back a lot of old memories for me. Cause, actually, I've done that like 5 times. Two of the guys probably just said they loved me and wanted to marry me because they hoped that meant I would have sex with them, the other three were way more into me than I was to them.
And, you're very wise to think about the long term repercussions, my compliments.

I followed my instincts in those times of not jumping in too quickly and am glad in retrospect that I did. I kinda wish I could've dated one or two of them longer to see how things would have played out, but, my reactions and analysis of things like that ended up driving them away after a few months... which is when things would start all over for me and the cycle would repeat itself. They were great guys, but, more into me than I was into them. It doesn't mean my feelings weren't genuine or that they weren't great guys, because they were. It was just... imbalanced.

(and, yes, I've been on the other side of that equation once or twice as well... it would have likely been higher than that if I wasn't so painfully shy.)

no two people love each other the exact same amount. it's perfectly fine. that said, rushing to commitment (engaged before dating for at least six months) is a sign that someone is likely to turn out to be abusive (info from local abuse services). don't be pushed. other warning signs are mean teasing, overjealousy, not wanting you to have other supports, history of mistreating animals or kids, expecting perfection, plus half a dozen more.

lol this has so not been my experience

Just have fun...but be VERY VERY careful--I mean condoms and diaphragms, etc. You don't want to get pregnant in college!

If you don't want to have sex with him, tell him directly (like I think you've been doing already). Stick to your guns. There are guys who believe that "no" is actually "yes." Make sure he knows it's always "no" until you want to have sex with him. No room for any ambiguities there. It's not because this a "rape culture"--it's because that's just the way guys think, and have been thinking for millions ofyears.

It sounds like you're having a natural good time--but you guys are young! Don't rush into anything!

And don't let it affect your studies!

Ah, yes, this, so much this.

My older sister is a genius, and NT. She got a full ride to a 4 year uni... and blew off classes once she got engaged.
That was 17 years ago and she's still waiting tables, lost all of her financial aid and scholarships, never completed college, no health insurance or retirement account.

Oh, and she and that guy were engaged for three years and then broke up.