I don't give a crap about graduating high school.

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Hi...long time lurker, and first time poster. I'm an 18 year old aspie female in my final year of high school. My grades are considered good, and I got accepted into college. I'm on track to graduate, but that means a lot of stuff I honestly don't care about. At all.

First, there's grad photos. I missed the deadline for it, twice...on purpose. I don't like being photographed, I feel ugly in photos and I just hate seeing myself. And now my mother is suddenly showing interest in grad photos and when they are. Uh oh.

Then there's the prom, and my boyfriend really wants to go and dance with me...and I jokingly say no when deep down it really scares me to go to prom and I don't like attention. At all. Good or bad. I feel like all the attention is bad, and i'd rather not be noticed. He knows i'm an aspie and he still loves me. I just sucked it up and said i'd go when deep down I wanted to cry and not go at all.

Finally, there's the graduation ceremony itself. I see it as unnecessary, one more reason to pile on makeup and make a big freaking deal over just for a picture and a FAKE diploma. Why does high school make me go through all this crap just to get a damn diploma?

Basically what i'm trying to say is that how can I deal with all this stuff? I already feel bad about lying to my mother about grad stuff (I think it's my method of trying to forget about it), and how come I don't feel excited about graduating like the other kids? :/

Know that in less than four months from today, it will all be over; never to happen to you again. If you can wait out these four months, then you're home clear.

first, welcome to WP!

we are on the same planet. june 10. it will all be over for me. and i'm at peace with that idea...it's within reach, IT'S THERE! finally.

i'm with Fnord on this one. it will never happen again. you are more than 7/8s of the way there.

i know what you mean about not liking having your picture taken, i hate it too. never smiled in school photos, fidgeted.... my senior portraits back in september (for the yearbook) were mandatory. we could chose from different 'packages', so to speak, and i chose the most minimalist one. the bare minimum, although i sucked it up, because if i missed the deadline, they'd use my junior year portraits that, i found out, were even worse than these. so it was ok.

my mom never went to high school, and neither went to college so i understand why she would be pushing me to do all this crap.

i wonder what you mean about 'fake diploma'? that they give you a roll of paper that's not the actual diploma or that a HS diploma doesn't mean anything? at my particular school, all the grad activities like prom, grad night, grad ceremony are not required, but being denied from participating in them is used as a punishment...i'm almost tempted to do bad things just so i wouldn't have to do that crap, lol. (not sure if you can willingly opt-out, though) i don't care about it either. you sound like you just want to be over and done with it, and not end with a bang. i get it!

i hope your boyfriend understands. i don't now f i'll go to my own prom. maybe not..

where are you from? here in my school, the requirements for graduation far outweigh the state's minimum standards.

Hi Kiprobalhato! My man is actually beside me right now. <3 and by fake diploma, I do mean a piece of paper they hand to you that's not the diploma. Also, Southren Ontario, Canada!

hi, sunbasked. welcome. you say what you don't like. what sorts of things do you like to do?

Haha, well I like to fix computers and bake things <3 not too crafty but I like to do some little pintrest projects as well. Reading and learning is something else I like as well.

if you want to bake, you can come to my house anytime. i share your love of learning. don't know how i survived before the internet.

when i graduated...i was pretty much forced to wear the gown and attend the ceremony. I would rather have had them mail me my diploma and let me do what I wanna do then.

Hi and welcome. I was much like you in high school. I never even collected my real high school diploma. We were meant to get that from the library at some point and I just couldn't be bothered. Once I was out of high school I never wanted to go back for any reason at all, even to collect the diploma.

That didn't affect me at all in life. I was able to go on to community college, university, get jobs, rent places to live, etc. There is a lot of social importance placed on pomp and ceremony, and it might be important to your mom as it is a 'coming of age' thing that a lot of parents take pride in.

Maybe you could do something special for your mom instead of the grad photos, etc., like offer to make a special photo of yourself in a card with something you write to her specifically, so she feels like she's received her 'parenting pomp' for helping you get to the point you are graduating?

I am guessing she might feel like this is 'a very important time in your life' and 'you will regret it later if you don't do it'. A number of us older characters tend to make statements and have feelings like that based on our own regrets, positive memories, etc. I'm sure she likely just doesn't want you to 'miss out' on these 'important milestones' and may have some underlying worries about her own parenting if you haven't 'integrated' into also liking these things. x