Hello.
O.K, so at school I rarely talk to people outside of lessons, instead I wander round corridors awaiting the next lesson. Every time I engage in a conversation with anyone I always go too crazy and fast, not so much having a conversation as I am just trying to say things to be able to stop talking to them. Talking to people normally is very tiring and strenuous, unless it's people I know really well from my family. I have observed the behaviour of several children and noticed how they all group together and talk. Is there a way for me to talk to them without "acting" as I call it, without going crazy?
Incidentally, I don't know if this is usual at all for autism, but I seem to switch between three personalities, varying in confidence and how I talk to people. The faster, manic one already mentioned. My usual self, who I want to be when talking to people but never am. And sometimes I'll just not respond to anyone, be sitting down and just rock back and forth for a while. I suppose these aren't so much three personalities as three different emotions, maybe, but I wonder if it's not unusal. So, is it possible for me to talk to someone without "acting" and do I really have three personalities or just three states of mind?
23 Feb 2017, 4:08 am
