I wouldn't mind so much if I didn't have this intensive music concert and another 2-3 page paper and a poster and some weird project where I have to make boxes and it wasn't 4:15 on Sunday.
It's not like I just blew off everything wasting the weekend. I had to practice intensively for this concert, and after it I tried to start the math thing and I just kept running into problems and confusion, because every damned thing in mathematics depends on some other concept, so to understand one thing I have to look up two other things, one of which I have to look up other concepts in math to understand. Today I had church and I ended up falling asleep afterwards and then I lost my cellphone.
It's not gonna get done. It's just not gonna happen. I might be able to bs the english paper and do the box thing, but the paper will be complete bs because I don't have time to properly close-read The Great Gatsby
If I try and do the math paper I'll spin around in confusion for several hours, if not for trouble understanding the concepts, than for trouble understanding how math translates to an essay.
I dunno man, part of me doesn't want to care and wants to get lost in the fulfillment of classical music. Part of me wants to get self righteous and angry. A small part of me tells me I can't do that and right now I'm in neutral.