neongrl wrote:
I don't think I would have liked traditional college/university life on a normal-sized large campus at all.
Only now realizing that I chose an environment that was especially unsuited for my problems. Undiagnosed at the time. Wanted to attend a large school, in hopes of blending into the crowd enough to avoid negative attention. Also figured the odds of finding others who were strange like me was increased in a larger population. At RIT (20,000 students), the dorm buildings looked identical to each other-still have bad dreams about getting lost there !
Dropped out (combination of reasons) after finishing 3rd year of BFA, that was back in 1994. Hadn't occurred to me that I'm not at fault, that if I'd gone elsewhere I might have succeeded. Not like I've use for a degree, though-piece of paper has no bearing on my inability to cope with work demands. Dreaded notion of life after graduation, instead of looking forward to it (like my classmates). At least school provided structured mental activity, which I miss. Being booksmart was rewarded, and was nearly sufficient to justify my existence. Learning/knowledge from academia doesn't translate/transfer to life I experience out in the world. I was naive/unaware.
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