I graduated college, and got a part time job bagging groceries. I was basically let go, for not doing that well enough the last 2 months. I am living at home now, at age 23, and my dad will comment to me about "you can't even hold a job, at this rate you won't get down to Florida where you want" And it really hurts. I feel so defeated. And, if I can only get a part time job again, that will just still be hard, because it's just not enough. I need full time.
I want to live in my own place, we decided I would live here in Indiana to get used to living in my own place, etc. then eventually I can move to Florida, or wherever I wish to live (warmer weather) Cold weather affects me very negatively. Overstimulating, painful, etc.
Anyway, I read a stat. that people with autism, 70% don't have independence... I don't want to live in a community either, as I want to have a private life, with a woman, and eventually family. Is this possible? I just keep getting shot down, and it feels so belittling. I want out of my house, and I want to do things right, but I can't seem to. Bad things keep happening, and I keep having to rely on other people, like my parents, and I hate that. It hurts my pride, and self esteem. They don't want to talk about it, and it's just making me go crazy. I feel like I have an invisible ball and chain attached to me.