Sweetleaf wrote:
Seriously, every job I've had since I was able to get some help from voc-rehab funding me to go through an employment program thing to well get me into working every one, I have been told I do my work well and they sorta wish I didn't have to go...lol.
Yet everytime I start a new job I am worried I am going to fail and f*ck everything up and no one will like me. So I get super anxious about it. I don't see why I can't remember how well I usually do when I start a new job, and instead worry about all the worse case scenarios that could happen, instead of having a bit more confidence that I do pretty well at most jobs I've had.
Spectrum thing for sure. I've done some pretty good things at work for businesses.. problem solving things that come easy to me but others cannot see. Problem solving things that are worth a LOT of money to businesses. Yet I made one fairly significant behavioural mistake in a past role that was the final straw that cost me my job and for the last couple years I've thought I should Never do work like that again because I can't Guarantee my symptoms aren't going to get the better of me sometime.
And that's kinda nuts. Because I am actually better at those sorts of things than MOST of the people paid to do those jobs. Over the last week I've been thinking maybe I Should do those sorts of jobs, but only on a consulting project basis - not as a long term employee. I come in, solve your problems, you pay me for it and I leave. No hanging around to make social blunders. I simply do the thing I'm good at, deliver value, and get paid for it. The added bonus for Me is that it could potentially be very lucrative.. like if someone has a $500k/year problem & we agree that if I solve it for them they'll pay me some % or time period of the value of the solution.. if I solve it quickly, I could potentially earn a large paycheque in a short timeframe. I'd need to discuss with a business consultant friend how to value things and what sort of ROI businesses would expect from paying for consultant's solutions. Whether a % of the savings, or a % of the gains etc.
An accountant friend told me he knows some tax accounting consultants that did a project for a University. They struck a deal that they would get paid 50% of any gains they could find for them from missed government grants. They went through their books for 8 months and fond that the University was due a bunch of tax credits for the heating system upgrades they did to save energy. The government rebates were $20M and they were paid half, so $10M. That's an extremely lucrative example and not in my field of expertise.. but just a true story of someone solving a problem or finding an opportunity and getting paid based on an agreement of the value of the solution vs. hourly billing.
But I've never pursued anything like this Because of my anxiety about ASD related mistakes. Meanwhile there are stupid people working in these jobs and Not solving problems at all because they can't see the solutions.. and then there are slightly smarter people billing them $225+/hr to come up with solutions that are maybe worth it maybe not.. meanwhile I'd be willing to strike a deal where they pay me Nothing unless I solve their problem - and if/when I do; they pay me handsomely for it
because it's worth it. If I could rid myself of ASD anxiety & boost my own self confidence over the topic I'd put feelers out into the ether and make a deal with someone to analyse their business and see what I can do for them - which is probably more than others could do for them regardless of my occasional blunders.
Hmmmmmmm
24 Sep 2024, 7:32 pm
