How can I find something I don't suck at?

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I feel kind of similar to that , a big part of it is not having much confidence because I got picked a lot in school and well it didn't help things. So I kind of lost my enthusiasm of trying new things there were other issues too like anxiety, depression and ptsd. I have been on SSI for the past couple years, whilst getting treatment for those issues and since then have I have been doing better to the point I think I am ready to try working not to mention I kind of need to because 423$ a month doesn't really cut it.

That said you may find that you are good at some things, can you think of any particular tasks you're good at...or that you enjoy that could be related to work? I mean I had two very short term jobs in the past not counting the college work study job and was fired from both, but thinking back there were certainly things I was good at. Also though for jobs you may not know if you'll be good at it or not...until you get the job. Also a lot of times they'll provide some training so you don't start your first day clueless.

I actually may be getting a job if my second interview goes alright, but I don't know how well I'll do I had to pretend I was a little more confident than I was because I am unsure(though realistically its washing dishes and mopping floors and maybe helping slice ingredients if needed...I think I can do that). Plus I won't be out front dealing with customers, which will be good

I am also 27 without much job history/job experience, so that seems a little daunting, especially with looking for entry level work, I suspect I will get that feeling of being the oldest entry level person there. Also you can just start with a mediocre job like dish washing and get some experience and then from there you could probably find better jobs. Or figure out some kind of self employment later down the road. But yeah may as well just start looking, I didn't even think I'd get a call back for that application I sent in because I don't have any specific job history to list...don't have numbers or names for the places I worked when I was 17 and 20.

I need to find something I don't sick at too. I'm terrible at my job. I don't learn quickly. Even where I have help I'm slow.

If I'm non smart enough for basic IT I worry I won't be smart enough for other jobs either.

I can't just quite to look for other work or to study because I need pay rent. Even if I spent years getter a qualification in a different field I might find out too late I have no talent for that either.

You're doing well enough to keep the present job---maybe you're not as bad as you think you are. If you were really bad, they'd fire you---trust me.

They will. I'm sure of it. They keep talking about how I shouldn't need help but I need help. I get help from workers who've been there as long as me and had access to the same information as me. if they've been there as long as me and had access to the same information as me why do they know so much more than me?

The boss says if I get stuck I should first try to figure it out for myself and then flag it within 5 minutes. A fantasy. After five minutes I'm just beginning to formulate a plan to figure it out myself. Then when I ask for help it often turns out the answer was in some email I didn't fully understand but to them the answer was obvious so they say I didn't read my emails.

Sometimes theyll just say "the answer was in email I sent out" so then I have to read through dozens of long emails to see if any of them contain the answer, which takes a long time and then they complain I'm being to slow.

We're a corporation doing work for a government organisation. The company gets us to email them a nightly report saying how much we did and how long it took us to do it. They have to request paid hours from the government organisation, which is harder for them to justify if I'm not getting much done during those hours. It's even worse during overtime. They hate it when they have to request overtime hours when I Diddy get much done during said overtime hours.

Then the following morning we stand in a circle and say how much we did the previous day. I hate it when it's so much less than the others.

On a good day I'll execute about half as many test cases as the other workers. On a bad day it's a much smaller fraction. During lasts nights overtime the guy sitting next to me successfully executed 7 test cases during the time it took me to have 3 failed attempts at the same test case.

Much of the time I don't know what I'm doing. If I ask for help they get mad and if I spend time figuring it out myself they say "why didn't you just ask for help?"

They keep saying I should be experienced because I've been there for two and a half years but every months were working on a totally new and different system.

I learn by doing. Before we touch a system we read the specifications (which aren't written with the intent of being an instruction manual but we have to use them as such) and maybe get a brief demo. After that they expect me to know the system. As I said, I learn by doing. There's no way I can ever learn how to do something just by reading about it. Yet the other workers read the same material as me and they know how to do it straight away.

We're on a 3 year contract. It ends in December. They probably won't want to renew my contract. Then I won't be able to pay my rent so I'll have to move into my mum's disgusting squalid house (she's a hoarder) and throw out all the furniture I'm still paying off because mum's house doesn't have room for it then without an income my credit card balance will rise exponentially with compound interest as I spend the next few years studying for a field that may or may not hire me. Maybe I should jump in front of a train instead.

I'd really like to live a life were I go to work, understand what I'm doing, do it in a reasonable amount of time and then go home satisfied that I did a reasonably good job instead of a life we're I spend 12 hours per day second guessing myself and being utterly confused to the point where sometimes I don't even know the right question to ask.

I wouldn't be surprised if some other employees do the same things you do, and the boss says the same things to them. It's just not all out in public.

They still would have fired you if your performance was truly substandard.

At the very least, should you not "burn bridges," you'll have 3 years of valuable computer experience should they not renew the contract.

No I'll be jumping off the balcony should they not renew my contract. I can't live with mum again.

I know some of the other workers aren't confident. One of them was forced to resign and several of them won't be coming Baelair next year. Possibly including me.

The reason the manager sent out that email is because there's a clear divide between the top performers and the rest.

I feel like it's partly an executive function issue. Sometimes I'm slow because there's too many things on my mind. Sometimes I'm slow because I stop working to read my emails. Sometimes I get into trouble because I didn't stop working to read my emails (there are dozens per day and 90% of them are bulk emails to all employers that have no relevance to me). They tell me to be faster so I neglect my emails and I make mistakes. They tell me to "slow down and be careful". I can be fast or I can be careful. They want both.

I can't concentrate when I have too manager things on my mind. Sometimes I can do a good job by going slower but then they tell me to go as fast as the other workers and then I try to go fast and I panic and I end up being even slower.

I have so much trouble prioriting between many small tasks. I focus on the first one and forget the rest of them. I've even seen people who were a bit dumber than me be more successful than me when they have a well organised mind, a good short term memory and no emotional problems.

I try to be less emotional but trying to be unemotional for emotional reasons just makes me more emotional. It's treating the symptom instead of the cause.

Who knows? They just might renew the contract, and they just might think you're good enough to work with them after the renewal.

There are bosses are there who like to be critical, and who really don't like to praise. You were certainly not bad enough to be forced to resign.

In the meantime, in case the contract is not renewed, you should start looking for other opportunities, while remaining with the present job. You'll have 3 years experience by the time the contract is up----most jobs tend to require that much experience. It's a heck of a lot better than having no experience at all.

Remember: don't do this on the job! Do this on you own time, on your own account.