Trying-To-Teach wrote:
I have 15 more days of teaching over the next three weeks until I am finished with this placement. I am in desperate need of suggestions for how to make it through this... I don't want to give up on my dream of being a teacher, but I am afraid that if I don't stop feeling like this, I won't be able to do it.

Explain the context of the class thoroughly in the lesson plan when you get observed. Plus, the bad behaviour is currently the teacher's responsibility, and not yours. I think observers will understand this. Also, just be yourself. I used to get told in observations that I was trying to control myself too much. Even if you are a bit awkward, in some ways, if the students are focusing on how eccentric the teacher is, they're not sat around doing their hair and texting on their phone. Though it can be horrible feeling like you have to provide a kind of degrading spectacle to a bunch of unappreciative teens all the time. Just think of the good it's doing them behind the scenes. They're learning something, and they haven't really learned much in a long time.
Once you graduate, you have several options:
1. Work for a distance learning/e-learning company.
2. Be a private tutor.
3. Work in a special school.
4. If you want to stay in a place like you're in now, find somewhere that has supportive colleagues who will observe you and give you tips. Don't work as a substitute teacher or for an agency - try and get a permanent job, because then the school will invest in you more.