So I've been working at Walmart for about three weeks now and I hate it. Everything about it I hate. I work 9 hours a day 5 days a week and I hate it. So I found a way to survive the horrors of Walmart. I completely let myself go into imagination land. I imagine that I am one of the first Mars colonists. I imagine I am exploring Mars with my robot companion, which resembles K-9 from Dr. Who, I imagine that I am building other structures, working on vehicles, fixing things around my little dome house. I imagine it all. At the end of the day I forget what I even did at Walmart, but I remember everything I did on Mars.
While I do enjoy this and it is probably the only thing that has kept me from quitting, that and I need to pay bills, I am just worried that I will begin to shut down outside of work and just end up living on Mars in my imagination instead of living my life on this planet.
There are other things that I am worried about too that Walmart seems to be bringing out in me, claustrophobia, and social anxiety that is similar to, but not exactly agrophobia. While my imagination is helping me deal with these issues, it's not curing them or stopping them from getting worse. It's just slowing the problems down.
I just feel like the older I get, the more I seem to be going a little insane.