Nick9075 wrote:
I have not held a SINGLE job longer than a year since 2007 (my Resume says otherwise but that is a different topic). I tend to get bored and lose focus very very quickly in the traditional office cubicle type of job.
I've long said that I would never be able to have a typical cubicle job. It just sounds so incredibly boring and repetitive. I'd feel trapped in a little cell. The idea just repulses me! Not to mention, I hate the idea of 9-5 jobs in themselves. "Living for the weekend" means that when you look back on your life months/years later, it's like a huge chunk was spent just waiting around miserably. I never want a life like that.
My first real job lasted three years. At first I loved it. I felt a sense of accomplishment and self-worth that I never received before. My hard work was actually appreciated, it was great. But then everybody's attitudes started getting me down. Everyone else was miserable. They talked about how they hated their job, gossiped about each other, and other negative things that I couldn't escape from hearing. I eventually got sick of it and made a very wild decision that most people would never do (I quit during this recession, packed everything I owned into a van, and drove 1000 miles away. Yes, very random, but maybe I'll discuss that elsewhere later.) Since then, I've held three other jobs. One lasted a year. The other lasted 5 months. Now I'm about 2 months into one.
I've found that I very quickly get bored with my jobs now. I start off excited, but sometimes even on the first day I start having doubts as to its longevity. Within weeks I start feeling the normal flow and sometimes get bored even then. It's causing me a lot of strife, because I worry if I'll ever find a job I could be happy with for the rest of my life. A lot of people say they understand, but I don't know if they really see it the way I do. Most of the time it's just, "Oh, you haven't found it yet. You'll find something!" or, from the pessimists, "Yep. There are always morons in charge. Nothing you can do." Lately I've had people tell me to just start my own business. My boyfriend's a business owner, so I have hope, but I'm so self-critical that I can't find the strength to actually believe I can do it. I know it would involve a lot of work, and that doesn't scare me. I'm scared because I know I'm impatient and if I don't see positive reinforcement very soon, I get discouraged (with everything I do, not just jobs.)
So yes, jobs seem very hard to hold. I'm very jealous of people that can take a job, do it all their lives, and be happy about it. I wish I could have that, but I'm fairly certain that that will never happen. I just get bored of jobs too quickly. I think the only way I can be happy is if it's entirely on my own terms, with no idiotic boss, like a freelance photographer for a magazine that gets to go on adventures all her days...