It never gets any better

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I've been struggling to get a job for years now. I can't afford a car and there is no reliable public trasportation where I live. Last summer I finally managed to get a temporary six month position at a nursing home, and took a CNA class so I can get a perminant position as a nurse aide. I needed to rely on rides to get to my class, so I couldn't get it done before December 20. After that I needed to schedule my state exam to get my license. But first it was Christmas break, then the lady who does scheuling was sick for a week, then she was the week after that, and the one after that. So then I finally got my exam scheduled for Febuary 1. But then that huge snow storm hit so exam had to be delayed until Febuary 10. And then there was another storm taht delayed my exam until Febuary 24. I finally did my exam, but at this point I am already totally broke and homeless. I applied for jobs, but I need to be added to the state nurse aide registery. I was told that takes 7-10 days. Todays is 10 days sinse I passed the exam, but I just checked and I'm still not on the registery. Of course, even once I do get a job, I have to work an entire month before I get my first pay check. And as I mentioned, I am already broke and homeless.

I have to say I keep bouncing this thought through my mind also 'It never gets any better". I
have not figured it out yet but I think for me it will be like yourself getting an exam working
through all the steps towards an opportunity. For me social steps these days get wiped
away (i'm unable to figure out what value they have anyway). I think we have to keep
getting exams as the world is not static, it's moving, other people are moving with it too,
keep moving. That's my plan so far anyway exam steps rather than social steps...

Maybe that 10 days is 10 *business* days and you only have 2 or 3 more to go.

I have been in your kind of situation, and there is nothing easy about it ... yet you can survive it and eventually move forward in life.

Its been this way for years now. Everytime I do the work to move forward, some new obstacle appears and undoes everything I worked for. I'm just sick and tired of all the bullsh*t. I don't even f***ing care anymore.

For me I feel the same, but I have to somehow type here a solution for myself, cause I care. I have read a lot of different things on this website and I think the same as most people here, its a shock to me that I finally see thoughts that I have are already posted and discussed. I only read the Tony Attwood book last month, I only see it now. I actually feel good about something for the first time in my life. I thank you for posting the topic. So far what I see is people care, in fact it looks to me I'm part of a huge group of 46 thousand people that are with me when I go for a walk, sit by myself in the pub and drink a pint, when I'm drinking my morning coffee. I feel good for the first time, I feel when I'm standing at the window waiting for my unemployment cheque there are 46 thousand people backing me up if I get any issues. 46 thousand people facing the bullies with me. 46 thousand people, I can hear their foot steps with me. These are my thoughts and these thoughts work for me today. I don't know where you are, or how you grew up, but this is reality to me. I hope when you think, you think the same. When 46 thousand people move one step forward I am in sync.

I am so f**king pi**ed off right now! I did my part. I worked hard to get my CNA license. But now the system is just turning around and saying "F**K YOU!" all over again. I'm not asking for a free ride. I'm not asking to freeload off of anyone. All I am asking is for all the motherf**kers to let me work to earn my own living. I am so g*dd**n f**king sick of this f**king bulls**t!