I do voluntary work at a charity shop at the moment because I'm unemployed. Because of my high anxiety disorder, (and my ASD, I suppose), I have a special employment advisor for adults with disabilities to help me look for the type of employment which will suit me and my needs. But a couple of weeks ago he had to phone up my charity shop, just to see how I do and stuff like that. They said some good points about me, but also something negative. I expected them to be honest and say something negative, but I didn't think the negative would be what it is. The negative is that I'm slow at my work, and I never thought that. I was always told that I make a mess, and I expected them to say something like that, but not that I'm slow. And I heard employers don't like slow people, ASDs or no ASDs, so I'm more useless than dogs s**t.
Now I feel afraid because if I'm slow at an unpaid job at a charity shop, what the hell am I going to be with paid employment, with all the more pressure?! I'm damned if I know.....
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