I'm quiet upset because I really thought this place had a position for me but I didn't do so well at interview.
Usually I interview well and give them all the great phony answers that they want, but for no reason at all I gave different answers this time.
I'm so disappointed in myself and I do not why I didn't just act the same as I normally do. I think it may have been because they kept me waiting an hour before they interviewed me because they 'run over' so by the time I went in I was not thinking straight.
Also they made me do this stupid test and though I knew most of the answers, when they took the calculator away I think I messed up big time because I started to feel like a cloud had got into my brain.
I'm very disappointed because there were great opportunities for me and they thought I was a good candidate and then I went and socially screwed everything up, yet again, and then I messed up that maths question and now look innumerate. I didn't demonstrate how good I really am at the role at all.
I am so mad at myself for not sticking to the rehearsed answerers. My partner pointed out that maybe they will be fed up of hearing rehearsed answers all the time so I might be ok but I feel so stupid, I messed up again but this time at an interview. I am fed up of messing up social stuff all the time, I want to be normal and get a job 
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