I am always right when I'm negative

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Every job I've ever apply to the past two years I've been rejected. The reason is because I was severely bullied in public school and as a result I had to go to a special education School and even though I got my high school diploma from a high school, the fact is I never took classes in that high school but went to that special education school in Boston.

As a result, even though I hide my autism diagnosis on my resume by giving away the name of the school, they employers are able to look up the name of the school and find out that it's a school for kids in young adults on the autism spectrum.

And I also predicted that no one would hire me because I'm so unlucky and so far every prediction I've made regarding that has been correct.

I also applied for an internship with the Department of energy through my community college and I predicted to my classmates who encouraged me to apply for the internship that I will be the only one who applies in the entire College who will not get accepted both because of my disability and because of my bad luck.

Even though I got three letters of recommendation, have an excellent GPA and am a science major and, I was literally the only person in the entire school who got rejected for the internship for applied twice in a row as I predicted both times.

My dream is to become a broadcast meteorologist, but how the hell will I ever get my dream job if I'm constantly facing non-stop discrimination and bad luck. Honestly, What's the point of even going to college if no one will ever hire me.

Our mindset affects a lot more than we think. In therapy I learned about re-wiring the brain and thinking positive even if we don't really believe it will turn out great because our brain will believe in it as it believes anything we program into it (the brain can't function without us telling it how to, it is entirely dependent on what we tell it). A better mindset tends to affect our life in general, this is why you see and hear of so many people who has struggled so much worse than yourself suceeding so much in life, usually you will hear these people talk about how they've always made themselves stay positive even through the worst of times and refused to not believe that they're gonna reach their dreams one day no matter what obstacles came in their way and see how that turned out for them.

I've tried this theory myself and it worked, lots of things changed in my life to the positive right out of the blue but of course it took a while especially depending on for how long you've been telling yourself negative things and how much time you put aside to re-program your brain again.

Having an autism diagnosis really should not be such a big deal and you should also be able to show your diagnosis to people who can then help you find a job you like. Maybe not your dream job right away but gotta start somewhere right?

There is no such thing as luck, things that happen because of "luck", are just things caused by reasons you do not have control over or are not aware of.

~~ Addition ~~
I apologize, I didn't say anything explicitly helpful. I just mentioned a possible reason why things like that happen to you...
Anyways, try observing yourself from a non human point of view, perhaps you will find the cause of your "bad luck" and do something about it.

Best wishes!!

Things you have no control over.....does sound like luck.