samantca wrote:
sartresue wrote:
We need this forum! We need it more than sperm, penis, porn, mdma, panty questions, and the like, which are stupid, NT like, male dominated trivial junk forums.
If I am the only one left I will post here.
I agree
Me too!
A lot of the time I forget how awful it was, how utterly overwhelmed and uncomprehending and panicky and in some waking nightmare I felt. Being mother.
And wish I had known about AS, and known other people with AS, and been able to talk about it with people who understood. The papa used to just tell me to stop, to shut up; it was
unspeakable to say what I was saying. I did not dare say these things to anyone. Except one woman friend in the uk by phone a few times which may have saved me from worse.
And what I have been thinking/feeling about the father, and how his being there may have made the whole thing more difficult from the start. Because I got very little time alone to steady myself, get clear. And because when he as there he had more demands, required set meal times, etc.
I wish that I had been able to read all that somewhere. It is sooo taboo, to be practically terrified of ones baby, to want to abandon it, to no longer want to have sex with the father ever again.
So, yes, even if the In-Depth ( ID ) forum stays open acess and doesn't become a real foum for older and parent AS then would carry on posting here.
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