thechadmaster wrote:
Dont think of AS as a curse but a an intellectual gift from God.
WARNING: LONG POST
All, I have to say is. Wow! I totally felt this sentence. First, I just want to share some things with everyone. I used to be like some of you out there asking the "why" question when I was a kid. "Why me?" That kind of thing. And I used to go to church with my family every sunday, but it never did anything for me. I never felt any different than what I was doing in my every day life during the week. I tried because I wanted to know the answer to the why question. I wanted to know, what my parents were trying to put upon us children and for us to learn and grow spiritually. It never happened for me. For me, I always wanted hard evidence, because it was hard for me to think outside the box (it still is) and to see something that wasn't there.
Anyways, now I go to school in the southern US, where that region is part of the "Bible Belt" and at first, i didn't know if i wanted to get back into the religious/spiritual part of my life again after not being a part of it for so long. Well, a friend of mine talked me into going to one of the campus ministries with her, and a year later, I'm still there and have added other campus ministries to my activites as well.
Now, another thing you have to understand is that I come from the midwest and grew up in the traditional church and coming down here, I have kind of gone out of my shell and have been to very contemporary services down here and I continue going to them. It has been a totally new experience for me. I guess you could say that I've been sort of a born again Christian.
Because of this experience, I've come to grow as a person and have to come to understand and accept myself as a person and to know that there was a reason why I am what I am today. I still have questions about my faith (thinking outside the box again) but I really would like to learn. Really, what I want to know is what it feels like to know that you're in the presence of God, things like that.
Going back to the quote. "Intellectual gift" just made me realize even more that yes, i really do know who i am and that this isn't a bad thing to have. It has made me realize that I can work with Asperger's and play upon my strengths and to make them even more stronger and maybe eventually my weaknesses will just fade away. Yes, they will be there, but I won't be too worried about them because i would be confident in myself. I would have the knowledge to know what I am good at and what i can work with.
I just wanted to share my story with everyone. I'm not trying to change people's ways or anything. Just wanted to share my story. I do have questions and I used to be and maybe still very doubtful about certain things, but I really would like to learn and grown spiritually.
Surely "born again Christian" is a tautology. All Christians have been born again, regardless of denomination. Thank you for sharing your story with us. This all sounds very exciting! All the best in your walk with God.