I've known since birth (1993) that I was an agnostic atheist and completely repudiated any man made religious doctrine since early childhood; whether it's Scientology, Biblical Christianity (including fundamentalism and the double-thinking Christian "counter-cult movement"), New Ageism (more of a postmodernist spiritual NRM), Babylonian Talmudism (Judaism), Holy Quran (Islam) as I empirically depicted them as a form of Orwellian social engineering as it's underlying objective was aimed to suppress non conformist dissension, freedom of thought, rationality and even spiritual conscientiousness.
I had not been aware of the agenda regarding such self proclaimed "peaceful practices" at the time, and it certainly wasn't just the predominant Abrahamic monotheistic ones, especially the multifarious new religious movements (NRM's: polite doublespeak terminology for collectivist cults) like "Secular Humanism," (yes it's a postmodernist belief system, nothing more), New Ageism, LaVeyan Satanism, Jehovah's Witnesses, Unitarian Universalism, LDS, Family International (or any other fundamentalist Christian NRM), Rosicrucianism, "Creativity" movement, and the Unification Church that have perpetuated the egregious divide and conquer isms/ologies/ocracies collectivization matrix of humanity which has been going on for around the past 200-250 years.
For the past several months, I now lie between Agnosticism and a heterodox form of Deism with a mixture of "cold" and "warm" philosophical explications ("cold" deism vs "warm" deism is a false dichotomy) and I'll go no further than that, but then again this whole universe might just be one Leviathan of a holographic simulation beyond several infinite dimensions...but who knows?
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Diagnosed with "Classical" Asperger's syndrome in 1998 (Clinical psychologist).
RAADS-R: 237/240
Aspie score: 199 out of 200
Neurotypical (non-autistic) score: 1 out of 200
Alexithymia Questionnaire: 166/185 AQ: 49/50 EQ: 9/80