I am a strict atheist. The idea of a creator is unintelligle to me, like a squared-circle. I can believe in the possibility of God existing inside of someone, as a source of their hopes and fears, to calm their nerves and for comfort, all humans have something like that inside of them. But God existing as some type of entity, watching and controlling the world, makes absolutely no sense to me.
However, I do wish sometimes that I could believe, there is no doubt comfort and enrichment to be experienced in a truly religious lifestyle, not one based on fear or superstition. I also tend to like christians. The nice ones, the ones who don't try to convert your beliefs or judge you. My aunt and uncle run a church, but not once have they ever tried to persuade me to go, and I appreciate that.
I am all for christianity as a way of life, I just don't agree when they band together to make a movement based on religion. Compare it to farming, farmers have a way of life that doesn't bother anyone, are good to their neighbors, good for the community, etc. But when they band together, like to lobby for farming subsidies, then they begin to try to justify decisions for all based on their way of life, not reason or the wellfare of all.