lotuspuppy wrote:
I left Catholicism not as a clean break, but as a mutual and amicable separation. I was always the most ardent Catholic in my family, and considered joining the priesthood for some time. I think my drift began in college. My local priest was always rather liberal, and while a man of faith, was very tolerant of many behaviors (and, befitting the stereotype, one of those priests who loved to have a good time). I started exploring other churches when I moved, and realized just how strict they were. I also noticed that, outside of my home town, many Catholics were very puritanical. So I stopped going. I got into Zen Buddhism for mental health reasons.
I have heard anecdotes that the Catholic Church in the U.S, at least among non-immigrant communities, is both declining and becoming more conservative. That disturbs me. Despite this, I bear no ill will towards Catholicism. In fact, I still see her as my mother. Like any mother, we have disagreements, but we still love each other. I am not Catholic by any means, and I do not believe in God anymore. But I would not be who I am today if it were not for Catholicism, and the Catholic Church does far more good than harm.
I kind of feel the same way. Although I'm no longer religious and consider myself agnostic, leaning towards atheist, I still feel that my moral compass has been formed by my Catholic upbringing. I have some beliefs which I would not discuss on WP, or anywhere for that matter (as I know how strongly some people feel about such matters), which others might see as being a religious stance. As I'm not religious, it can't be that at all, it's definitely my moral position or a matter of conscience (which is internal and not about upsetting God). My Catholic education is responsible for guiding me in this way, but my actions are not reliant on God watching my every move, not these days anyway.
The reason I stopped going to Mass initially was because of hypocrisy. I felt really uncomfortabe being told that I was a sinner, whilst the prients never mentioned the issues that the church was facing, due to sinners in their own ranks (who had much more damning sins than any I could be accused of). I never fell out with the church then nor God. To be frank, I was so pious, at the time, that it was my belief in God that turned me away. It was a few years later before I became agnostic.
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