My existential crisis
maldoror wrote:
How do you reconcile the view you have of the world with the view everyone else has?
I kinda just accept that I'm different, and that the differences make "being the same as everyone else" impossible, and that's okay with me. The world is interesting because of the differences, not because of the similarities.
maldoror wrote:
At lunchtime I went up to the second floor of the library and spent about half an hour gazing out the window at the students below. I watched them collect up at the entrance and disperse, weaving their way up the walk between people going the opposite direction with no specific organization. Who records their footstep patterns? Doesn't that matter? If it doesn't matter than why am I always paying attention to stuff like that? Why is it there to pay attention to? This stuff goes on all the time everywhere you can think throughout the day and it has such a beauty to it, and for all I know I'm the first person to ever sit up there and watch that.
I love to discern patterns in what appears to be chaos; it is very interesting. I lack the mathematics to define the patterns, but I, too, spend hours (of course it doesn't feel like hours) watching people move. What I have decided is that there are patterns to everything that might not be apparent in the short term, but if you look at enough samples, you can see the ordered chaos. Recording footstep patterns matters if you want it to. Who cares what other people think? There is a beauty, and I love that you see it, too. It's great isn't it, like you see something no one else can see because they don't bother to look at it.
[quote="maldoror"I could swear I've learned more from that piece of chalk so far; today I was so engrossed by the correspondence of her chalk and her voice that I started twitching for some reason. It sounds stupid when I look at that on the screen right now, but at the time it made perfect sense.[/quote]
I hate chalk, but I also enjoy it because whether people hear it or not, you can tell so much about a person by how they use chalk (or other writing instruments, but chalk is easier because it is louder than a marker.) It is interesting.
[quote="maldoror"]I should learn to speak chalk.[/quote]
This is great!
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I went thru that too. I started out as a computer systems engineer, and went to psychology. Engineering is something I will always keep as a hobby, but I need a purer science to hold my attention.
Do you program at all? If so what languages? Perhaps we can collaborate.
Linguistics is an interesting choice. If you decide to study brains and minds, then I can promise you this: There will be no end to the chaos that you can become absorbed in. Psychology is my favorite science, personally. And it's also a very young science, so there is much uncharted territory to explore.
I considered my philosophical delima solved when I found I could explore and build for a living.
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