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I live in almost absolute seclusion, I humble myself before you.
me 2.
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My theories, philosophies and religion is yours to do with as you will.
No one I have met has given me any respect, nor, assistence, aside from my wife, in my most lonely of trade.
I should be teaching at University, people should be interested in what I give you, for free. Even if I am meaningless next to what I actually write.
me 2
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I am alone in what I create. I am a pariah. I am a heretic.
I am an absolute heretic.
Your eyes, are almost the only eyes, ever to have seen what I write.
its mostly good stuff.
Very interesting. way deep.
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I like to remind people of my absolute humanity. I like people to know how agonising my cognitive anomaly is.
I sometimes wonder if Life made me so terribly imperfect, so that the writing I do, somehow has more meaning.
I have to leave these forums soon. I won't be able to come back for a long time. My mind is about to shut down again. There will be no more editing, there will be no more writing for a while. I need to shut down soon and go back to seclusion.
I am sorry you feel that way. Maybe my place would be more your speed.
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But I'v been glad to share what I know.
I'm torn between sharing what I know, so that one day I can make a living from the writing I do.
I have dreams.
I want to build a worldwide religion based on my philosophies, so I can build temples, and the infrastructure that I need that can spread these ideas of mine across off all humanity.
Me 2
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I want to build schools, universities, and fund every type of scientific research that is possible.
I'm so ill, though. Can you imagine what would happen if I wasn't ill? It would be beautiful.
I am just as much a slave to my Aspergers as I am a slave to the philosophy that I write.
me 2, BUT, it can become a tremendous strength, esp if we find each other and work together.
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Until I die though, my work will never end. I can only hope that I succeed. The odds in my case are not high. I have no assistence. I have no one to talk to. People avoid me like I am cursed. The sanest man alive, may die without not a soul ever knowing what I know.
Things just changed, bro.
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But where there is Life, there is hope.
When I do walk away from this forum, and soon I will walk away, and I will be all alone again aside from my wife, I know that no one will be there to assist me. And Life only knows I need all the help I can get.
come on over and come on home...