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We didn't choose the life we live nor the environments we grew up in nor the backgrounds we're given. We also did not choose to be born to the families that either raised us or threw us away. We did not choose to be born, period.

But somehow it's our fault and we shall be punished for the sin of existing due to another human's prejudice or the sins of our fathers.

Conservatives: "Government doesn't work. Elect us and we'll prove it".

Never trust a leader who either smiles all the time or is seriously unhappy all the time.

People tend to mourn when a part of them dies or that they loss something.

While I celebrate when a part of me did.
At worst, it's a disruptive transition.


Closest thing I can relate was something that never came to be, or things that never allowed me when I should if it weren't for whatever burden that should've been prevented.

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People have told me that I hate freedom. I don't. Freedom is the best thing in the universe, but too much freedom like any good thing can be very bad. We can't let people do Everything they want. That would get a lot of people killed. People need discipline. Moral restraints are needed to keep freedom in check and well balanced.

It's not hardships, the lack or being beaten by the so called facts of life that made me learn humility.

It's the comprehension of existential complexities.
It's the real knowing of not knowing everything.



Hardships never give me decent lessons.
Hardships only sink me further into darkness.
Hardships makes me more distant from the divine.
Hardships won't help me know my own place let alone accept it, it makes me defy it.

Hardships ... Hadn't let me open a lot of doors.



When I lose an aspect that gave me more hardships, doors open for me.


It's like I never need to earn through gaining more crap.
I need to unload more crap out of the way to earn.



To many, it's the reverse of that.
I work the opposite around. It only works for me in reverse.

To many, they gain something through pain. And loss warrants them grief.

To me, pain doesn't grant me anything more than knowing what I don't want.
And loss gives me more relief than grief.



... I don't work like most humans.
I thought it's because of neurodivergence. Turns out it's way, waaaay more than that.


People of the same neurotype as me...
.. Still just as largely work like how most humans do in that fundamental level.

Many just sees the social, the contextual emotional and the relationships thingy, just like most people would thought that's what the depth of humanity is.

Not realizing their mutual foundations that aren't projections and assumptions.
Not realizing deeper similarities than just being another individual human.

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I used to think that USA would never have a war with Canada because they thought our country wasn't worth taking over. As usual, I was wrong.

I'll be interested to see what the world looks like in a decades time....im not resistant to change but I am nevertheless a tad nervous

99% of the time when someone insists someone else is being too political, what they mean is they disagree but don't wish to have to expose themselves as disagreeing or articulate that disagreement.

"Get out of my comfort zone, expand your comfort zones" -- that won't work with me.

Because I don't even have a real comfort zone. I never truly found one.
Not even in my own body.

Hell, especially being in my own body and existing in it.
They're just as noisy as those annoying live band every weekends, if not more.

I say -- shrink your discomfort zones, eradicate them all if it's plausible.


And the typical chart where the comfort zone is at the center along with self?
That doesn't reflect my actual experience.

My main discomfort zone is at the center, less discomfort zones in random clusters.

Being "stable" and "in balance" is technically my comfort zones.
I don't even have that very often and for most of my life. Because it exists not anywhere in the 2d plane. Because it doesn't even exists outside me.

And the lack of stability doesn't equate to lack of relaxation. In fact, anything outside of anxiety and pressure can be just as of a chaotic factor.

Lack of anxiety doesn't even imply stability, really.

Really, who complains about being too relaxed? No, I only kept seeing accounts that they're too anxious and no nuance beyond that.


Thus...
... I don't even demand a change from anything beyond me.

If my own body is my comfort zone...
... There won't be a boundary between inside and outside comfort zones.

People couldn't fathom the idea.

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Regarding my post on February 4th, I searched through my memories and got a little anecdote.

When I was in high school, my writing teacher gave the class an assignment. The assignment was to write about a historic event that happened on the day you were born. I did some research and found that in the month I was born, good ol December of 1991, a couple things happened. First there was the disbanding of the Soviet Union thus officially solidifying the end of the Cold war and then there's the debut of the hit video game Sonic the Hedgehog on the Sega Game Gear handheld. None of that happened on the day I was born and my teacher would never have been interested in me writing about a video game release. I had nothing to write about so the teacher gave me an F.

I took an F because history took a skip day on my birthday. Was that MY fault?! Life's not fair, sure. But people don't have to be so cruel and cold hearted about it.

Pierre Poilievre has never had a real job but somehow has amassed >$35 million. I want to know where that wealth has come from and who owns him.