carolina73 wrote:
My father died when I was 7, so I guess I started thinking (obsessing) about this at an earlier age than some. I go through times when I read everything I can about near death experiences. I was raised in a strict religious denomination (almost wrote demonination-oops). I remember going to camp when I was 13 and the preacher saying "Imagine 5 minutes in hell--burning forever" or something similar. I think I've said the sinner's prayer every time I've been in church!! ! I got baptized twice just to be sure!! ! I no longer attend church, it took me a while to catch on about people having more than one face, guess I was a bit slow...and I have a severely autistic child so it would be kind of difficult... Anyway, I guess I'll find out one day what happens, I wish I could be assured of seeing my dad again and that I was "right with God". It's funny I fear death , but at the same time I have a longing in my heart that gets deeper as I get older (I'm 37) to "go home". It's hard to explain. One day when I was obsessing particularly bad, a tv show came on (and I very, very seldom watch tv) and it was the twilight zone show where the old lady is terrified to die and she looks back at her body and the death angel, says "What you thought would be an explosion was only a whisper" and she walks away happily with him.
I'm not sure if it was a coincidence, but I took some comfort in that maybe God was telling me to calm down about it.
I guess I just wanted to know your thoughts and experiences.
Yesterday was the 3rd anniversary of my dads death, I often think of going home to be with my parents I miss them both so much, I even had my will set up so I will have my ashes buried with them.
I don't think dying is anything to be afraid of, its only a part of life, I will be glad once mine is over so I can see my mom and dad and all my ferrets and dogs I had.