leafplant wrote:
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I just don't want to be with someone who sees any sex act I do, but especially the more vulnerable ones, as a service.
Aww, to be young and naive once more..
if only...
I'd be totally up for some escort action, however heating bills and cat food take precedence. But, my birthday is coming up soon, if any of you loaded WPrs wanna cheer me up
I think I'll always be idealistic about sex. I realise how young and naive that sounds. I'm still this way after a decade of being sexually active and getting quite badly hurt. I find the rewards of not separating love and sex outweigh the drawbacks. It's dangerous. though, because all kinds of love, not just sexual, have the potential to destroy you - but I'd rather be destroyed than live with the fear of being destroyed.
I know none of the Wuthering Heights crap about love sounds like it's related to prostitution, but it's about me (and my lover) wanting to experience relationships a certain way. I know it sounds stupid, but it's what I feel I need to do given that I probably only have one lifetime. When I have sex 'properly', I experience something outside of the normal competitive survival mode of existence; it's something full of vulnerability, sharing, passion, freedom and ecstasy (not just pleasure.) I don't want to trample on it, especially because it isn't just about me any more, but there's another person involved in this folie a deux. I see it as a mini-revolutionary activity and I see things like having a consumer-like, cynical attitude to sex as counter-revolutionary.
I realise this sounds completely insane.
It's probably (certainly) some form of mental illness, and the way I feel is just a misfiring of electricity in my brain, but for the most part I like it and want to live it. And there's someone else along for the ride, now.
So, I wouldn't stop people from living a different way to me. I believe people have the right to do what they want with their own body. People can embrace the attitudes towards sex exemplified by prostitution if they want, and it would be immoral to stop them. I realise that all I'm entitled to do is create my own life experience and share it with people who want/respect it as well. I can't dictate to other people who want something different. I can disapprove, but I understand my disapproval is worth slightly less than wombat droppings.
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