TallyMan wrote:
I can relate to what you are saying.
I don't think that you do. At least I don't relate at all to the example of something you see as similar.
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... a sense of belonging and community ...
This is totally alien to me, in the context of belief in god. The only time I felt something like this was on a Large Group Awareness Training, "More to Life", a Cognitive Therapy based course I went on a few times. And I agree that it can be, and in fact was, very hypnotic, for a while.
But that is not what I feel as a result of believing in god. So it is probably that, like you about your zen buddhist experience, I am simply not able to express it very well, which is why I also do not generally tend to try and describe my feelings etc, but stick instead to the bare bones of it.
Apart from the first rush of feeling, which was astonishingly powerful/moving, I have tended to find it a remarkably unemotional experience. Like a belief in justice, truth, or free will.
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I knew I would be lying to myself.
Yes, I felt like that when I was in my teens and went for a while to a christian group called "Crusaders", and they were so "happy" and smiley etc, and I "tried" to join in, to believe, but realised very quickly that I would have been only pretending.
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