I believe I am here for a reason, but I know I do not ought to be this lonely.
If you ask what I believe, I believe in the God of Israel, who created everything in time immemorial, the effects of such event eventually giving rise "designoids" as Richard Dawkins would put it. In short, based on my experience, I think God left everything to chance, until He found such times to call His creation - hence, most of the observable realm is no longer directly 'designed' by Him.
As for His Son, the much fabled and debated Jesus of Nazareth, I believe he is a very special human being, he is the Christ, after all. He was made immortal since his resurrection as an example of what to hope for after the standard lifetime. Nonetheless he is only divine, and NOT a deity. Well of course doubts about my connection to Them still creep into my mind, since both God and Jesus are objects only alluded to by text and not directly experienced by my limited humanity, nonetheless, my current literacy and text exposure point out to me that they're more existent rather than not.
I am fervently hoping that I do not serve in vain, since if any of the Biblical 'facts' were to fail, I would have failed likewise, my faith would be reduced to a false judgment. Though it is tolerable to have false beliefs - true in themselves, it is not right when used to judge objects outside of the mind. I guess there is still some trial and error involved. If my faith fails me, I hope it is ignorance, and not stupidity that I execute, although I would prefer to be living in True Wisdom in this lifetime. But since my senses fail to show truth and reveal only illusion, I am only left to choose to believe in things that are unseen, and the hope that if God is my Father, that he may be merciful to reveal these things to me, and the fundamental truths, in His time, even if it is not this lifetime. In the end, I can only profess ignorance, but I don't settle, I'd rather fail than not try at all.
In short, I believe my life would be woefully empty, if I don't have God in my life. Yes, part of my mind says that it only happens due to my human nature, and the upbringing that I've had. But I cannot choose that, that is forever part my identity and I cannot discard that. Even if my perception/conception of God and religion is only a delusion, I hope and strive to live closest to the truth as my humanity would allow. And if my religious, scientific, and psychological construct of what I believe, even if I do not know exactly why, is a fairly close representation of the unseen end of reality/God, I hope to truly be a friend to God and my fellow humans, as one who has learned to love and live in this limited existence.
I know there are worse points of contention. I know I don't have the 'evidence' to back this all up, but this is what I want to share here, so please bear with me.