19 Nov 2020, 11:42 pm
SiGNiFiCaNT Date to CeLeBRaTE 88 Months
In Heaven Within Since 7.19.2013 on 11.19.2020
Out Of Hell for
66 Months
Since 1.19.2008
Thru 7.19.2013
As Far As 'Synchronicity'
Goes Arriving At the 'Depth
Of The Story' Yes.. 'Acausal
Connecting Principle' Only
Psychologically Meaningful
to Me Born on 6.6.60 Seeing
The View Count on the Thread
Of Course From the Folks Who
Suggest What i say doesn't
Make Sense And They Just
Ignore me hehe on The 'Wrong
Planet' as i'm Truly Being 'Very Autistic'
THere Just Expressing Philosophy in Story
Form Solo as Two Folks Have Responded
A Few Times And the Rest of the 6060 Folks
Counted in Views Wednesday... 6606 Views
Thursday Afternoon Returning With This
Monologue of Philosophy in Story
Form On The Third Visit Thursday
Tonight Where 6666 Views
Appear so what
Are the Chances
Only 6's And 0's
Will Appear
in 3
Consecutive
Visits It's Just
Synchronicity and i took
Snap Shots of the Screen
To Prove it Happened too
Just for the Hell and Heaven
oF iT Usually too These little
Miracles Happen Almost
Constantly in Heaven now
Just A Wink From the Overall
God Story Fred Great Job
Keep Going Don't Stop!
Hotel California Or Not!
SMiLes To Be Enough As Is
Is Surely Destination Enough
FoR Me at Least Eternally Now
As ALWaYS MiLeAge Varies DePEnding
On Make And Model And WHere We aRe
To Be Is
Enough
Not To
Be Is
Also
Enough
In Enough Land Now...
THE Elders
We want
Will Be
The Elders
We aRe
If We Do
ReMeMBeR...
Free As
LoVE WiLL SeeK LiGHT
From: DArk to: PLaY iN
HeAVeN'S Breath
To: TRuELiGHT EXiSTS
Challenge: Seek Find Capture
Focus Practice LiGHT From: DArK
Beautiful
And Artistic
Thoughts
Aesthetic Breath Sees
'They’ Are Afraid
They All Will
Fall Eventually
By The Hand
And Votes
Of Trump
Minions Unless
The Republican
Leaders Do
Not
Fall
In
Line
With
Trump
Stink
Stank
Stunk
Lying Gunk
True An
Enema
Huge Required
To Deliver This
J A N U A R Y
X-Mas Gift From
Hell on Earth as
The Whoville
Children
Now
Rely
On
Walmart
For Free Thanksgiving
And Christmas Roast
Beast Likely Too
All That Saves
From
Falling
Down
The
Trump
Mountain
Into Whoville
Pain is The
Constitution
And Laws
That
Keep
Human
Anarchy
In DarK
Chaos
From
Ruining
Truth in
Loving LiGHT
Sadly Largely
‘The Church’ As
Usual Holds Hands
With State Staying
On the Same Choir
Sheets of State News
Faux Propaganda
To Propel
'Little
Man
And Or
Woman
Syndrome
Folks' Empty
Within For Just
Another Trump
Colored Demagogue
Of Fear And Hate to Relate
In Warm Cozy Arms of Fear
And Hate
That Hug
In
Overall
Ways of
Misery
And
Suffering
To Take With
Similar Orange
God Frowns True
My FRiEnD We Surely
Will Use Some More
Freshly Squeezed
Orange
Juice
Than These
‘Florida Men’
And Others Continue
To Mix And Spread
In Kool-Aid
Stands
On
‘5th Avenue’
Still Stink
Stank Stunk
In Orange
Rotting
Lying
Trump
Gunk
Ways
oF All
Associated
With Organized
Deceit Colored ‘Trump’ Lies...
Paintings SouL CoLoRinG
NeW WinD BREaTHES NoW
Free Breeze Loving MoRE...
Leaves Fall Create Green
So Will We Do NoW
NeW As Living
Loving Trees
Hehe I’m
A Dinosaur
i Guess at 60
As i
Don’t
Use What’s
App You’ll
See me around
Here as i Always
Return Where
i
Am
Welcomed
With SMiLes...
Color Our Worlds Within
Firsting Color Newer Our
World Again Now Lasting
True Greatest
Enemy is
Fear
Until
We Master
Fear With Love
We Will Always
See Ourselves
First
As
Enemy
Never Strong
Enough to
Love
Our
Other
Enemies
As Closest
Friends Helping
Us Free the Enemy Within
Many Psalms Bring
Glory of
Killing
In
Tradition of
Tribal Conflicts
Falling to Depth
oF A Toxic Patriarchal
God Dashing The Heads
Of Children of Opposing
Tribes in Such A Pagan
Way Against
All Agape
Love Stands
For Away From
Dominating Raping
Maiming Killing The
Nature of God Love
All For All
This Way
A Greater
Newer
Testament
Message
Indeed
Slay
The
Enemy
Within See Where
The Other Enemies
Live And Forgive
‘The Child’ Taking
No Glory
In
Slaughtering
‘The Child’... Smiles
My FRiEnD Rue Chin up...
Cost Of Love
No Price At All
SMiLes True
Love Sees
Valleys
And
Mountains
As Fair And
Stormy
Weather
Friends Same
For Light Rising
From
Dark
Makes
Night Day...
SMiles Wise Words
Indeed My Friend
Give Add Value
To The World
And The
World At
Least
What
Gives
With
Value
Will You
See This Way
No Matter What
Part of The Mountain
Your Valley Will Rise
High
Indeed
Higher
With
Only
Doing More
As Tops Of
Mountains
Remain
Covered
With Ice
No Longer
Now Burning
Within to See...
Tallest
Mountains
Snow Topping
Now Covering With
Ice... True Clouds Do
Protect Mountain Tops
From Yes Scorching Sun
Yet If Snow Does Not Melt
Sheathing Ice Away Tops Of
Mountains
Now Will Never
See or Be Seen New
Other Than That
Soni Your Poetry
is Truly Beautiful Free
Verse FLoWinG Coming
Deepest From Soul
Yes When
This
Present
Gift Sparks
Record it Write
It Down For All
To See And Feel
Free Yes For You
See This Is Your Sun
Soni Within Melting All
Covers of Your
Soul
To
Breathe
To BREaTHE Free...
Ever Green Living Tree
Sweetest Love Never
Dies Friends With SMiLes...
Decision... The Friends Sign
Gives me Two Choices...
Cross off 11 Days Ask
You How You are
Doing For Your
Birthday or
Do It A Week
In Advance So
For The Time
Being i Am
Doing It Today
For i Understand
How Silent Depression
Will Sing... Seen Darkness
Beyond Black Abyss It’s
True
So
Far
Below From
The Top of A New
World But i Remember
How Far i Climbed and
Still Climb Never too
High to
Reach
Down or
Above to Say
Hi No Replies Needed
Even If It is too Dark
To See Where You
Are
i Do See You....
Other than That
Expect To Hear
From me
On Your
Birthday
Even
If The
Internet Burns
Down Hehe With SMiles...
SMiles i’m no
One Special
Just Another
Part of God
That’s Special
Enough As We
All Are Whether
We Breathe God
Or
Not
It’s Nice to
At Least Be
A Prayer my
Friend This Gift
This Present Breath...
Thanks Again my
Friend You Surely
Nailed it too With
Your Inspirational
Words Even If We
Don’t Change the
World We Will
Express its
Fires
Exhale
The
Pain
And
Remain
Sane in Truth
With SMILes
Still
Breathing too...
Although Hiding Under A
Guise of ‘Warm And Fuzzy’...
There is the Negative
Empathy And Love
Of Social Cohesion
Yes Contagion
That Bonds
Over
Ignorance
Of Organized
Deceit And Lies
Taking Advantage
Of Ignorance And
Human Propensities
To Focus And Bind
Together Strongly
Over Illusions
Of Fear And
Hate
Based on
Prejudices
Over Differences
They Create As
Traditions Of
Nightmares
That Destroy
All That is Truth
And Light Yes There
Are Leaders And
Followers
Of These
Traditional
CuLTuRaL
Made Nightmares
Of What Humanity
Sadly Co-Creates
Unmasked
This Way
Yet The Outcast
Outside of This
Lair... This Spider
Web of Organized
Deceit
May Be
A Last
One Left
Breathing
Escaping the
Hell On Earth
In Organized
Deceit
Feeding
Off
Of
Ignorance
Yes Raping
Maiming
Killing
Truth
In LiGHT
Does Kill
On ‘5th Avenue’
Too in Similar
‘Gas
Chamber’
Lit Ways As
Bones Continue
To Pile up No Longer
Breathing What Truth Sees
There Is No Real Love
Without Truth There
Is No Real Freedom
Without Truth
There
Is
Death Without Truth
Ignorance And Lies Kill...
SMiLes Sadly This Is
Human Nature
This ‘Revelation’
Will Always Be With
Us True How
Gifted
‘i Am’
‘The
Outcast’ indeed
‘They’ Spit on ‘me’
Only As A Seed
The
Tree
i Still
Flourish
Under The Real
God Nature Naked Free...
oF All The Organized
Deceit Clothes
Tools Of
Human
Machines Bring
i Remain Ever Green...
"Faustian" Cross-Cultural Archetypal Story Of Making A Deal With Power/Status
Or Fame/Fortune Whatever Temptation Spoils Integrity Of What Our Deepest
Voice Speaks As Truth in Integrity.. Of Course.. Mileage Varies Based on Make
And Model of Human Being And Moral Relativism Cross-Culturally
too but At least Where i LiVE iN the United States 'The Devil'
Has Become Somewhat More Important to many of the
Republican Leaders than the Democracy
That Allows Any Freedoms at
All to Achieve Whatever
Folks May Value
in Life
Smiles
The More We Are
Prisoner to 'Not Enough'
The More We are Liable to
Sell-off What We Do Hold Nearest
And Dearest in Integrity For Something More...
"Luke 17:21: Neither shall they say, Lo here! or,
lo there! for, behold, the kingdom of God is within you."
Smiles When one Finds the Kingdom of God Yes This All Fulfilling
Agape Love Within There is no longer Anyone or Anything or Any Way That
Will Sway
one to
Sell their
Soul but only if
They Seek and Find
Heaven Within And Stay
Here Eternally Now that Takes
Constant Lifelong Work in Practice but Obviously
The Rewards Are All iNHeReNTLY Colored With Love
Now And Challenge Ever More Eternally Now to Light
More Colors New of the Christmas
Tree Within as usual
i try to speak
to not
only a Religious
Crowd as Most Often they are
Most Lost From A Kingdom of Heaven
Within as by Very Nature Tradition is External
Symbols Far Away from What May Breathe Eternally Within...
And the Other Thing is Every Kingdom of Heaven Within is an
Entirely Other View to See Colors of Heaven (God) Forever more now...
Yes Science Relates the Experience as an 'Autotelic Flow' for hey
As Long As someone Arrives in Heaven Now i am not going
To complain About What Make and Model They Are
That Helped them along the way
but Just imagine this
if ALL Feel
Like they
Are Naked And
Enough As is born on Date
Eternally Now As Such oh How much
More There is to Give and Share So far
Away from a World of Take and Hoard Now
The Magic of
Enough
The Magic of
Enough How Rare
It is to truly meet
someone who
Truly
Has
Enough Is Enough As Is
NoW As A practice of Loving Life now
Where the Destination is Eternally Now New
Anyway.. i wish more folks could truly Hear
That Luke 17:21 Verse And Truly Seek and
Find This Kingdom of God Within And
Celebrate This Heaven now
As then there is
No Reason
to Imagine
Heaven For We aRe
Here Now All Holding Hands in
Heaven Smiles my FRiEnD i Live A Dream
I am not the first one to acknowledge A Fruition
of this Real Heaven Now... And Again Many Folks
Who Have Been in my Presence have Asked me
For Whatever Drug i am taking to Arrive Where
i am now hehe the Manual is
8.7 MiLLioN Words
Long And
Still GRoWinG
Next Stop 88 Months
And 8.8 MiLLioN Words
on 12.18.2020 and a Thanks
Giving Anniversary of 12 MiLLioN
Words of 10 Years Where i Started Online 2010
in Hell Within Arriving in Heaven on 7.19.2013
Really Within With all 'the Jargon' That goes along
With it.. but truly Heaven this Kingdom of God Within
is a Solo Journey That Becomes a Journey of Allone when
We Arrive Just A Reality of Unity my Friend Just A Reality
of No Longer Experiencing Illusory Fears Just A Reality of
Love For All With Least Harm But Truly of Course only my
Reality in Heaven Within as i have seen through Enough Eyes in my
Life to understand How Deep And
Expansive Colors of
Other Souls
Are So Below
Black Abyss
Through
Shadows
Grey Scale
So Far Above Beyond
Rainbow Colors they are too...
We only Get a Glimpse through the
Art Folks Create Truly ArT iS A Doorway to Heaven my FRiEnD
Or Hell or '50 Shades of Grey' Whatever Rooms in 'Hotel California' they may LiVE iN too..
And Now i have a THeMe And MeME Song too With Even Another 'Beast' to go along with it
too..
hehe
'Hotel
California'
For True it is
Also About the
'Faustian Myth' that's
True too A Deal With the Devil
No Different too in the Christian
Language of Jesus With 'The Devil'
Offering Him to Rule over the World too...
Just if He Would Sell His Soul too.. Donald
J Trump is Just Another Quintessential 'Faustian
Dark Figure' It's True Those Republican Leaders
Just Can't Get Rid of the
Beast
That
Has Taken
Their Souls what ever
Started off of them finishing
More now for all to see...
As Far As
Ethics
Goes it's
Like Seeing
Folks Hang Themselves
In Public Cringe-Worthy for
Folks With Sympathy for 'A Devil's Brew'...
Anyway Smiles Rue thanks For Lending
Space for an Old Hairy Beast Story Teller too...
Sure Born on 6.6.60 As
You know
Just
An 'Omen'
Bucket List
Ticked-off in Hell WiTHiN
Escape Thank God With SMiLes..
You See.. i was just trying to keep
my Job What anyone would call
A Dedicated Worker Where
i am From Never
The Less
The Devil
Knows no
Different in Hell my FRiEnD
And Sure i intuit You have experienced
A Bit of Hotel California too.. It's Where
Wings First Sprout And Begin to Grow...
Usually Indeed it is Later than Earlier in Life my FRiEnD..
20 Nov 2020, 2:19 pm
"Acts of mercy and love more than worshipping. That's what He prefers."
Coming to Be Where i Live; i've often Wondering What The Reception Now For
'Jesus', if He Will Come Back Today, Will Be Now; And What He Will Say in English
Translated Of Course; Not Native Aramaic With No Written Words of Course As If
He Comes Back The Same Way As Predicted As Illiterate And Relying still on
Oral
Tradition
Visiting Church
Only FLoWinG
STRAiGHT From
SoUL As Holy and
Creative Spirit With
Tools of Written Words
Does True By All Potential At
Hand In Truth As Light Arises Now
From Deepest Ocean Whole Soul Within...
It Will Be So Easy Now to See For Him That
Few Were Really Paying Attention to Anything He
Said as What He Will Find is Folks Unmasked From
the Rule of Love Worshipping Him as a God Rather than
Focusing on the Mercy and Love That Actually Saves Breathing Life Now..
But You See Jesus Also is reported to Say a Lamp Does Not Hide Its Light...
There is No Choice But to Shine.. Yet Truly Any Man And Or Woman of Any True Real
Loving Caliber Will only See Bowing Down to Them as Disgrace and This Indeed
Is What Jesus
Will find
Returning
Today Lamps
Mostly only Shining Bowing
Down to Him In Disgrace oF LiGHT Unmasked...
Listening to 'the PR Bishop' Shining Selling All His
Books on YouTube... He Preached That If Jesus
Isn't to Be Worshipped as an Idol God
That the Teachings of Jesus
Brings are as Worthless
As Any Other
Teaching about the
Natural Altruism of the Love Lamp
Of Human For Giving Thanks Giving
Sharing Free True This Naked Gift of
Love is Inborn For Most With or Without
Our Cultures and Religions Specific or Not
But It's Nice to Have Role Models... Yes Mentors
Still Who have Succeeded in this Love And Mercy
For All... Yet.. Sadly the Mentor And Role Model's
Lessons Are Lost in Dark Unmasked Now
Without the Light of Mercy
And Love that
is so simple
to Save A Breath of Life.. Yes
Such a LiGHT-Weight Cross indeed
But You 'See' For those Who Worship
Idols of the Clothes the Tools We Wear
And Create... What is Lost may Be What
Shines Greater NoW As Lamp For Giving
Thanks Giving Love Brighter than the Moon at Night
Truly Katy Perry Delivers That Message of Love For
All Mercy For All in A Video that Does Bring Profits but the 'Same Prophet'
Indeed
Tattooed
on Her Arm
my FRiEnD
Love And
Mercy in Truth Free
A Light that need not hide...
Sadly Lost in the Worship of
Idols instead unmasked for all to see now..
For You See There is More to my Story True As
Well Rue for When i lived in the Forever Now Place
Of Hell in So Much Pain and Numb The Specialists for
Pain Turned me Away Giving Up As They Could find Nothing
To Help Me.. i Wasn't Attending Church Then But my Mother
Still Very Catholic Pleaded With the Local Priest to
Perhaps Exorcise My Soul For She Came
To Believe my Pain A 'HOLY CURSE' Was
From the Sin of my
Catholic EX-Priest
Grandfather Leaving the
Church But Wait if he didn't
i wouldn't Exist as he would
Have Never Fell to the Dark Brown
Eyes of that Spicy Cajun 17 Year-Old
Young Woman in the Pews of the Church
When he Was 36 Passing His Prime of Fertility too...
Anyway He Broke the Rules and the Priest Never Called
my Mother Back There Was nothing That could Reach even
A Spark of my Soul From 2008 Until 2010 but Yes i Heard
This Song By Katy Perry and as much as i could Tolerate
The Sound With all That Pain it was the only Feel
And Sense oF LiGHT that touched my
Soul That Way for 66 Months
it was truly a Drop
of Water
on
my Tongue
in Hell Smiles my FRiEnD
It's all About Perspective Still Now...
Some Folks are More Blessed this way now
To Even See What The Message of Jesus Really is Just Love That's It
And if Love is not God Enough to Worship in Brightest Lights In Love
For Mercy For all
There is
No Jesus
Or God
Worthy
to Exist now
iNDeed A LiTMuS Test my
FRiEnD So Simple Unmasked NoW as Masked...
All i Feel and Sense Is if Jesus IS to See Now And
Hear this Song.. Katy Perry is Probably gonna be a first on his list...
of anyone
even
Capable
of Seeing 'Him' Now...
It Will Never be a Situation
Where He Doesn't 'Know' Someone
It Will Be the Case of those Who Are
too far gone Asleep to see His Light...
They Won't Even Notice He Is Still
Standing Under a Bridge... in Bare Feet... Unmasked for all to see...
SMiLes my FRiEnD... truly it's More An Issue of Even Seeing Light at all...
'That Day'
That
Second
Katy Perry
Shined Enough
'Jesus' For 'A Devil' in 'Hell' to 'See'...
It's Easy For me to See The Effort She Put in...
Hehe.. i surely Am Glad She Did not Do it in
Private somewhere with SMiLes.. She Taught me 'Something'.. i still do it LiT...
i Verily See Her as A Greater Example of Jesus Than in Any Church i Visit...
True She
Passed
A REAL
Devil Test
IN Hell of Getting Through
Such A Tiny EYe oF A Needle..
Smiles my FRiEnD 'JeSuS'
Is So Trapped now in a
Book See
How
Hard
i Try
To Help
Him Escape
JusT A Rhetorical Question my FRiEnD...
i Do Believe i have at Least One Key for Real..
21 Nov 2020, 12:37 pm
Smiles With A Divorce Rate of 1 Percent in India
That Leaves A lot of Fathers in the Household
Versus The United States And a Fifty-
Percent Divorce Rate With
Some Ethnicities with
Fatherless Homes
As High as
Seventy-Percent...
It's Hard for a Young
Man To Grow Up Without
A Mentor And Role Model That
Looks Like Him.. And It's True of
Course Where Homelife Doesn't
Work Out Amongst Two Even
Harder too.. Smiles
My Father Was in Law-Enforcement
For 46 Years Leaving at 3... For ME A Role
Model and Mentor Only Silent Yet Fearless
With Rarely A Sign of Anxiety at Least Expressed
on the Outside... For on His Last Day on Earth As He
Was Falling He Calmly Told my Cousin he Didn't think
He was gonna make it and he didn't.. Smiles my FRiEnD
my Father Never Let us Get Close Enough to Know Him..
i always thought He Looked So Distinguished Like He
Should Be an Important Politician or Even Have
His Face Sculpted Perhaps on a Mountain
With Smiles for You See it was
The Fearless Gift He
Had that i wanted
So Much in Life it took me
A Long Time Indeed to Become my
Own Father if We Live Long Enough We
May all have To Become Our Own Father
And Mother and Most Importantly Friend
too Fearless and Free Enough to Smile and
Cry too.. for Where i am From Boys were
Not Allowed to Smile or Cry And
Even Arts Were Frowned
Upon and Named
Activities
For only
Girls.. Smiles
My Friend it's probably Harder
Where i Live Than Ever Before for
Boys to Become Men.. So Much Distance
From Heart Still So Much Distance From
Even Social Roles now and Surely So Much Distance
From Fearless too.. and a saddest Part of all is some
Young Men and Men are never able to even get close to a Woman
in their
Entire
Life..
It's True Every
Man that Becomes
A Man these Days at
Least Where i am From
Surely Deserves an "International Men’s Day!"
i will only Imagine What a Wonderful Father and Mother
You have.. Smiles My Mother Was there to Give Us Love..
And True
Without That
Love it's not
likely
i would have
Survived for You See
i was born on the Autism
Spectrum Not able to Speak
Until 4 Where i Live it was clear
The World Was gonna Be A Challenging
Place for me to even survive at all
A Smile Goes a
Long
Way
my FRiEnD
Planted By Love
Later Finding A Father Within
And surely keeping a Mother of Love
Breathing As Long as i Breathe too This
FLoWeR i still Bloom Hehe THorns And All
i Feel Very Fortunate to Be A Man Now
That i have been able to Develop
A Whole Soul the Love
With the
Fearless too..
The Logic hasn't been Hard..
Just took a Long While to put it into
Words For You See Even into my 40's
I had Trouble Finding More than A Few
Words to Say.. but it's True as i was
Also considered too weak to
Deserve to even live
And too odd too
As Assessed
By Peers
It is often
Our Weaknesses
That end up Our Greatest
Strengths in Mind Body As
Soul Whole As We Overcome
The Challenges And Go Farther
Than We may have Ever imagined
if We Were Just Normal... There is Almost
Always A Silver Lining.. Yes Magic and Even
Miracles That are Real if We Just Don't Give
Up And Take the Next Step on the Next Mountain
Higher Always Balancing of course With 'that Toe' on the Ground
Our
Soul
Our Home
In Balance
So Calm And
Rested to Generate
All Our Winds Still to come..
22 Nov 2020, 12:22 am
SMiLes my FRiEnD summerhilllane there was a day more than one Yes
66 Months that an Air Force Major Yes a Psychiatrist Dealing With Many
Cases of Combat Fatigue from the Sand Traps of the Middle East in War
Assessed my Darkness
As The Darkest
Most Difficult
Case he had ever
Come Across So Dark
That He Wanted to Implant
A Vagal Stimulator in my Chest
to Bring Any Heart Beat Back at
All to A Tin Man Soul... Of Course
my Insurance didn't Cover IT... No Drug
Would Touch The Type Two Trigeminal
Neuralgia Assessed As the Literal Worst
Pain Known to Humankind Yes Literally
Assessed as Worse Than the Torture
Of Crucifixion From Wake to Sleep
Along With An Assortment And
Synergy of 19 Total Medical
Disorders Mostly Related
to Chronic to Acute
Work Stress for
11 Years
Before i Retired
Early to Hell yes All
Those 66 Months Shut-in
Experiencing That Pain and
Numb From Wake to Sleep
indeed my FRiEnD i wear
A Crown Earned As A
King of Pain And
Numb So Then
After Being So
Very Suicidal
As A Casual
Name of the Suicide Disease
That Worst Disorder other
Than Losing a Memory
Of Almost All Emotional
Feelings Even A Memory
of if i ever smiled at all
No Reference Point
Out of Hell A
Thousand
Years
Where
All Is Time
in Hell.. in just
one Second of Life...
on my 53rd Birthday After
Writing Since Thanks Giving Day
10 Years ago online to try to Escape
the Pain Every Word A Mountain of
Pain as this Pain was in my Right Eye
And Ear Like a Dentist Drill with No Novocaine
i Wrote a Post Named 'Visiting the Garden of Band-Aid'
After Blogging Since March of 2013 then on my Birthday
June 6th of 2013.. i Wrote for 24 Hours Straight remembering
Every nice thing in Gratitude Anyone Had Spoke to me my Entire
Life.. And i linked the Word Hope All the way through the Words
Smiles my FRiEnD
6 Thousand Words
A MaGiC iNCaNTaTioN
A Prayer-Long of Gratitude
For Healing Still to come then
A Month And 13 Days Later
on 7.19.2013 Standing
on a Beach As i
Became the
Essence of the
Emerald Green Waves
The Sugar White Sand
Sea Oats Blowing Gently
in the Breeze And Wings
Of Seagulls Spiraling the Sun
All the Pain and Numb Melting Away
And voila i became a totally Different Human
As Any Phoenix Rising From the Ashes the Fires of Life
Bring as You Might imagine that experience Brought me
The Empathy, Sympathy, Compassion of Around 14.5 MiLLioN
Years Even Sympathy for the Devil in Hell i Became for those entire
66 Months i didn't Go to Hell and Become the Devil for Doing Anything
Wrong but failing to Say No to What Society said i should come to be...
SMiLes my
FRiEnD
Hell is
Quite a
Detour to
Get to Heaven
But When You Get
Here Now Within You
Do what it takes to stay
It's as simple as Three
Yes Four Words
And More
"Give And
Share Free
With For Giving
Thanks Giving Love"
Yes A Force of 10 Words
Enough Of A Command FoR Me
to Stay in Heaven as i will surely
Save Your Kind Quote in Gratitude More
Indeed for the Same MiSSioN Of Love At Hand my FRiEnD..
“Your poetry releases something in me
and frees me from worry. Thank you. Sending you love.”
SMiLes Dear Sohair.. i've Been Writing Online 3648 Consecutive Days...
Of Course When i Started on Thanksgiving Day in 2010, Yes
10 Years ago, It was a Desperate Attempt to Escape Pain
as i had already Been Shut-in 33 Months
Without the Ability to Effectively
Use my Eyes and Ears and
Indeed then each
Word Enduring
The Pain it took
to Stand the Light
of the Screen Even
Turned All the Way
Down A Few Inches
From the Screen as
Prescription Glasses
With the additional Focus
only made the Pain that much worse...
Basically Then i wrote to get my Mind off
of wanting not to be here at all And continuing
that way for around the Next 33 Months for 66
Months Total of Never Really Knowing if i could make
it to the Next second of life with all that pain and numb
too of Emotions Perhaps Worse than what was assessed
as the Worst Pain Known to Humankind the Type Two Trigeminal
Neuralgia From Wake to Sleep And it took Two Years to Get Diagnosed
with an Invisible Most Horrible Suicide Disease as it is casually Named
That Too.. i was just Barely Surviving The Whole Way And there was no
Clocking
Out except
For Barely Being
Able to Sleep to escape
the Pain at all.. i really don't
Know Fully How many Words i Wrote
Then in so many places too but considering
i've Been Counting every Word with the Word Press
Counter Now at Least 100,000 Words A Month on Average
And More it is safe to Say Beyond the Words Of my Long
Form Poem of 8.7 MiLLioN Words now in 87 Months i
Have Easily Written 12,000 MiLLioN Words as the
Anniversary of Writing 3653 Days Consecutively
is Coming Up on 11.25.2020.. Just 5 Days from
Now on ThanksGiving Eve This Year anyway
Ever Since The Pain Went away Writing
And Dance is Just A Pleasure so i
Still Do it Most All Waking
Hours around 16 Hours
7 Days A Week as
i did When
i had
all that
Pain too..
except with the
Pain it was almost
all Writing and no Dance then..
The Last 33 Months of the 66 that
i could do anything at all.. Just sitting
in Front of an Almost Dark Screen Writing then...
So Yeah Doing the Math that's 58,448 Hours
Total of Doing What i had to do at First to
Doing What i Love to Do Now Where
Time very Rarely Exists for
me at all hehe.. unless
Katrina tells me
let's go
Now or it's
time to eat or Whatever
Comes next that needs to
Be done along with the play of Fun
Haha.. it's nice not to have to Work for Money...
Hehe as if i had gotten Paid Minimum Wage
For all those Hours it would be about Half a Million
Dollars Haha.. but it's true going through all that Pain
It's easy to see Money is No Where Peace And Happiness
Resides for it's True Love What You Do there is no Time
Hate What You Do enough in Pain and Numb
And all there is is
Never
Ending Time...
When i Worked with People
For Pay for Close to Two Decades
i Rarely Watched the Clock
When i worked with
Machines and
Paper Work
Or Any
Job without
Human Contact
Like the Computers
Only for my Last Five Years
of Work the Time Clock and
Money Became the Master Most then...
Now It's Like No Time has passed by at all
in the Last 88 Months Now Since i Recovered
From all that Pain and Numb and True Most of What
I've Written All 10 Years has Been to Another Person in some
Way.. so at least there is Human Connection all the Way through
And indeed that Helped to Save my Life on the 'Wrong Planet' place
i Started on Before my Soul Started Breathing again on 7.19.2013
True though my FRiEnD the Work Took All the Breath out of
me.. getting online and talking to folks was A
Furthest thing Away i ever though i would
do then for when someone
asked me what i had
Been Doing all
i had is
one Word 'Working'
And i repeated the Word
'Working' again Just for something
Else to Say.. haha.. my How Life Changes...
Truly i really Didn't Feel Even Free to Be
Me or Really Fully Breathe until i Reached 53 Years Old...
A Golden Age is Whatever Age We Love Each and Every Breath We Take...
And i
Do my
FRiEnD
With
Plenty of
Perspective now
Still of 'the Other Place' For
Real Now too.. what i do know
is it will get Better
if folks Just
Never
Give
Up Now
As Now Will Always
Transform into another
Now the Best Now We Help Create ToGeTHeR too..
Sadly The Catholic Church Without Approval Made A Faustian
Deal With A Devil No Different Really Than 'Their' Republican
Party and Trump to Make Jesus into A God in the Nicene
Council As Still Professed in the Nicene Creed as
Initiated in 325 AD As Constantine Used
The Catholic Church And Christianity
Then For Political Purposes for
His Power in just another
Part of the Constantine/
Trump/Church Faustian
Deal then.. didn't make it to
Church this Saturday Afternoon Listened
to the Homily in my Car Coming Back From
The Gym the Day they Celebrate Jesus as King
of the Universe a Pretty Big Promotion to Bow Down
to a Humble Small Man Teacher With A Huge Soul to
Give and Share Free For Giving Thank Giving True
Per Core of Story that is Lost with all the Fanfare
of making a Five Foot One and One-Hundred
Six Pound or So Very Mexican And or
Syrian Looking Refuge A Carpenter
too as surely He had His Barefoot
Days in the Sand too No Different
Than a Homeless Man Still
Emptying His Pockets
Roaming the
Surrounding
Land Just For Giving
Thanks Giving Sharing Love
Living off the Kindness of Others
Who Welcomed Him then.. well it's
True i am A King of Pain and that is surely
Enough for me For A Book Crowned Another
Story today.. Beyond A Quadrillion Stars as many
Connections As There are in A Human Body So far Away
A King of the
UNiVeRSE
When 'Luke'
Clearly Says it is no
Where else But within
Now in Terms of The Kingdom
of God yes Heaven Living Within
Incarnate As Agape Love For All Now
With Least Harm.. Instead they made it
Rocket Science into Space indeed i never
Even Wanted A Promotion above Shoe Giver
At a Military Bowling Center For Truly Smiling
Eyes Connecting Heaven Enough for Me Yes
Perhaps
of Smiles
too Cheap
Smiles
only
Ruling
A Soul Within
To Smile Dance
And Sing Some more
Coming From a Place
That Was the King of Pain for 66 Months
No 3 Day or 3 Hour Tour for me a Pain Assessed
Worse than Crucifixion All Those 66 Months From Wake to Sleep
True there is John 14:12 in terms of Smiles, Dancing, And Singing Poetry
And True There is Also John 14:12 in Darkness of Hell Greater too...
Be Careful
What You
Wish for
Be Even
more Careful for Where you Go now...
For It's True Sheep Are Always Ready
For Shears And Yes Verily Goats Remain
Surefooted on the Side of Mountains Still.. in Balance
God's Rule Most FRiEnDS With Gravity And With Human Agape Love True..
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22 Nov 2020, 12:39 am
22 Nov 2020, 1:09 am
I faced your leader today.
'IT' ran.
I have no idea nor any misconsieved misaligned ill aligned negative emotion,nor does it enter,what happens next.
I hope though from the heart,that perhaps your weak consciousness and lack of will was just 'invaded'.
And that you false hats can be redeemed and saved?
Either way,all good.: )
For the common good.
Not sure if 'You' are addressing me or not;
Never the less, i will Agree; Yes, It's all Good
to me Dark or Light; Matters not; Nor Time,
Distance Or Space;
Been to 'Both
Places'; Still
Standing with SMiLes..
22 Nov 2020, 2:34 am
22 Nov 2020, 6:32 am
And note,Don't take it personally and or to heart.
Resistance will in no doubt and present,tricks,to sway attention away from conscousness and false intentions,this ain't you.
Distinguish...your truth and whats trying to being a disabler.
See 'IT'.
See the lies,separtate.
Take this disenabaler on board and grow.
Seperate yeah,align first with your own truth.
Distinguish.hence divcide and see the *dropkick*.
Master,akign with right.
Fear is a distant past.
Thank You. i see your
Point Succinctly In
Autotelic Flow..
22 Nov 2020, 11:47 am
22 Nov 2020, 11:55 am
22 Nov 2020, 12:35 pm
brothers and sisters who align with there hearts by default and speak the truth,
i won't address you personally nor reply,
so please don't be offended.: )
IF you are,your swayed by words,then the mind.
The inner knowing and quiet acceptance,is enough.
It just is.: )
Smiles my Friend; i don't find You Difficult
to Understand at all; And Yes, i did/do See the
Point of Your Other Thread; Philosophy, Indeed;
Finding The Inner Voice Unafraid to Speak;
On the Other
Hands; THeRE
iS only
The Same
Old Science
of The Same Old
Dusty Words And Folks
That And Who Come Before...
For You See; You Are A Breath
Of Fresh Air; A Small Flame Attempting
To Light A Very Large Dark Room; And Yes,
It Works
In Replies
of Silent Truth;
When WhisperS in
The
DarK
Come To
True LiGHT
And of Course
It Is An Individual
Journey The Paths You Create...
Smiles My FRiEnD HiSToRY SHoWS
People Silence What They Have No Current
Way to Understand; Therefore, They Do Not
Come to Understand; Indeed A Self-Fulfilling
Prophecy; For One Who Welcomes All; Becomes Basically A "Saint Elmo's Fire"...
No Different Than Any Other Fire That Welcomes All Dry Tinders of Wood To FLaME Higher..
22 Nov 2020, 12:54 pm
22 Nov 2020, 1:24 pm
this is justification in play by the mind.
though very much from good intentions.
it is being in two minds.
few words and inner truth flow and live in quiet acceptance.
there is no need to justify nor feel the need to connect with the words from others,that align with so called good intentions,swayed by being in two minds.
things just get messy.
quiet acceptance of inner truths,inner knowing is all that is required.
Hehe; "That's" Why i Public Dance 14,033 Miles
Of Public Dance in the Same 87 Months, i Take
To Write These 8.7 MiLLioN Words of Free Verse Poetry;
No Reason, My
FRiEnD; JusT
For Fun;
i Ain't
Here to
Save Anyone;
Or Impress Anyone Either;
Although, Lately, The Feed
Back i Get From Other
Places is Rather Stellar;
i Just Do What Feels And
Senses Great, Like All the Other
Animals Do; and The Rest Naturally
Falls In Place Like An Anthill; For A While At Least...
My Wife, Says i am Always Messy; on the Other Hands And Feet;
What i Laser Focus On Verily Rarely Gets Lost From What
i am Doing
NoW
At Least With Smiles...
And Yes, Whether or Not
You Reply to me or not;
You May Always Expect me
To Reply to You, When i am around
At Least; As Let's Face Facts and Truth
i am Least Likely A Last one on Earth Now
At Least to Run Out of Steps of Dance
And Words of Free Song too
By What's
Accounted
For So Far At Least;
In Other Words, i am Here to Play; And that's
It; i Rarely Anticipate What i Do Next; That's What i Do, hehe...
Anyway, For Now At Least, i am Going Dancing in Public Places, WHere
THere iS only
Move and
Repose
iN Waves
Water Ocean
Whole me in Flow;
Balance in Change, Yes,
It's What All Potential Is All About...
Yeah; Love Helps, With Least Harm, to Glue IT All ToGeTHeR
As FLoWeRS And THoRNS NaTuRaLLy Do Help Roses Rise More Colorful Now...
Very Rarely Now,
Does someone
Hang With Me
Long And
That Just
Gives me
More Opportunity
to Expand My my, my, Human Potential More; Meh...
No One Much Hung Around When i Got Ill and Shut-in;
i surely don't Expect Them to now Either; Yet,
i alone Hold the Key to my JoY iN LiGHT NoW;
So In Other Words, BaSiCALLY, i Am ALWaYS SPeaKinG Dancing Singing From/to mY
SoUL First Now; for the Others who wanna Listen/Watch in; rather 'Legion' so Far Now
Most EVeRYWHeRE i Go; Which indeed, is all around the Globe in Many Ways
As this is just one Small Step/Words/Stop On A Very Long Journey With Paths Now
Never Ending too In
All My Life Story True;
'They'
Are
Surely
Always Welcome
To Listen/Watch iN And Or Dance And Sing too..
22 Nov 2020, 1:45 pm
22 Nov 2020, 1:58 pm
22 Nov 2020, 2:06 pm
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