Crocodile wrote:
Yes, but why? Why does God give someone more baggage than others?
Its fair to say its not equal, though in reference to Aspergers, regardless of what we go through, we're still on the light side if its that on its own - as compared to many kinds of health ailments, environment issues, or other issues that hit NTs as or more often than us.
That said though, theodicy issues as such, really knowing or understanding the full why would actually take us seeing the exterior structure which, we can philosophically try to map out but our assumptions are based on where the logic leads and you can have completely different answers that can seem to make equal sense - even if they end up a bit stilted. One hypothetical answer I can give - we have a life chart, we map out our own lives before we come here, that this is a micro-life in a much longer eternal life, that we live many of these, and that when we come back we have specific things that we want to experience and learn, thus not only are ailments explained but the sort of iron-clad destiny where we really don't have much free will at all when we think about it. That of course, like the idea of multiverses or that our universe is fine tuned by chance because of billions or trillions of chances - these are all intuitive speculations, speculations made because they intuitively make sense and because we care about knowing what's going on beyond our grasp because, whether we like it or not, it has everything to do with how we conduct ourselves while we're here, how we view life, how we choose our paths. Even in the work world, one has to work with incomplete information and do their best because there's no such thing as having it all laid out and having an easy problem to solve unless its really minor like going to the store and buying more paper for the fax/printer.
I think the only thing that gets blown wide-open with observing the world around us is dogmatic literalism of any particular religion, mainly that they all seem to have stretches of truth but its never seeming to be full. We also have grand and exquite mental imagry, emotions, it shows in our art, music, etc. and we feel this irrational pull toward something far greater almost even in the Pagan theist sense sometimes as being the origin of everything so great, something however so leviathan in size that we can't even get a grip on it, its like living inside a solar system inside of a galaxy inside of a universe inside of a mitochondrial structure inside of a cell in the body of an absolute giant (I wouldn't push that literally but I think you get the idea). That sense of scope as well could be what leaves us feeling like we're on our own completely. Though, through the warm hum of quantum physics and the lattice of energy woven around and through us, matter being energy in and of itself, I have a really hard time not seeing the possibility and based on some of our capabilities as human beings (like healings or psychic phenomena which I used to be skeptical of, still am in most senses, but it just takes on legit case to make you wonder) and additionally our pulls to be 'human' when if we really are here for nothing and are really here for nothing more than procreation of the fittest if that's the best we can come up with - humanity, liberty, emotion, creativity, are all in the clinical sense complete and utter refuse and if anything highly counterproductive.
Its those complexities that keep me, without a steril enough pathway to explain evil without still wondering if there's a better explanation, I'm more than comfortable in saying that I'm something of an agnostic theist, maybe partially agnostic, but still leaning toward theism and tending largely to pivot off of my Catholic routes toward Buddhism, Gnosticism, and Judaism in my views and where I think those ideologies line up.