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GRE@ITude
Posted on October 11, 2013 by katiemiafrederick

http://katiemiafrederick.com/2013/10/11/greitude/


10112013

9

i

I talk a lot about Love, Light, lack of hate and personal judgement..and True Will.. but the greatest human attribute of all i see is human gratitude…

IN fact, if I had may way I would re-label this human attribute as GREAtitude..

IN fact..I might spell IT this way to get your attention..in fact..i think i will from NOWon..

So here IT IS…

GRE@ITude

And yeah the IT is included by fruition on purpose as an after effect for a culture programmed to see everything me..a subconscious go GitHer if one wills..TOgetHER…

AS IT…

Well here’s a little more personal history again which i can also apologize for as it is probably getting repetitive for anyone who is truly following my blog who KNOWnow my intent is fully positive in total effect…

Without sleep in 35 hours of sleep in 40 days with 1 hour each of the first 35 with assistance of an alpha blocker and none possible in the last 5 until hospitalization and a much more powerful drug..along with accompanying pain of atypical trigeminal neuralgia like dagger in the right eye and ear..along with fibromyalgia..severe arthritis with the congenitally fused T6 vertebrae..dysautonomia..vasovagal pre syncope..Sgyogren Syndrome..severe anxiety..PTSD..Panic Attacks..Severe Depression..and other various issues including an Autism Spectrum Disorder..comes a place ‘none’ as hell..a place where every second can be a thousand years of human hell at the bottom of a pit of 40 almost sleepless days…

There is a place where there is nothingness..that exists..where even the worst pain disappears and then there is hope for any pain to remove that nothingness from the existence that IS…

Time no longer has any many meaning so forever is 1 second in impact of a thousand metaphorical years of hell…

Well…

AS you might understand now..and then as became the case..even the experience of pain became a sacred experience for gratitude…and death that could elicit emotions in an otherwise stone cold heart became a pleasure greater than all others when a beloved pet that I could no longer truly love without emotions died..last April…

So now that I regained the human sight that I lost..I spend my time taking photos of nature and even my own face..celebrating both the beauty of nature and the expressions of my face that did not exist anywhere in my universe for about 60 months or so…

When ALL i had is letters, numbers and words..the letters and numbers became symbols for my Universe..as when mankind first developed them they were artistic expressions of the Universe that surrounded man in visible sight in connections in stars that cross the sky..and the golden spirals that make the nature of galaxies..Nautilus shells..fetuses..and all the other patterns of nature that exist and are shared across the Universe as a pattern of life of ALL th@ IS…

So now everything is sacred to me..even a blade of grass or a grain of sand..but you see this is the way I saw life as child anyway without going through the human hell that was my destiny to be after three some 40 to 50 years later..as the innocent child of forever I used to be…

And so wh@ can I do now but share this sacredness of ALL i see..

I say ‘seyes’ to ALL that IS..as ALL IS sacred even ADOLPH HITler..and the mythological being described as the devil..that is a symbol of the dark side of human nature that any human can fall to given the destiny of potential circumstances…

So I say evilivedevilive for one simple purpose..as what is above makes what is below what makes what is above..and the cycle of life goes on…

Yeah.. that movie the Lion King had IT correct as far as I see as the CIRclE of life goes on like a Golden Spiral..or a Nautilus shell…

And you see my friend..even if I Am dead now..this is my Nautilus shell…

As you come across IT…

NOW…

So I say what do you leave behind for others..inspiration to love and live or to hate and die…

IT is only your WiLL as if you come across this when I Am dead all I can do is pray for you now..in words..that you read at this moment NOW….

But in life It is the Passion Inspired by emotions that move humans ahead..and I do have this passion again NOw..so what I do is share..as IT is hard to keep that level of passion to one’s self alone…or @ONE….

wELl..I guess I have my new blog post now..

Titled Gre@ITude…

But no rush..as this one is still fresh..I guess…

And certainly with a title like IS IT OK to Luv Lucifer IT will be one of a kind for some time to come..on a Google search..for anyone to come across some of these unusual thoughts….

RAndomly.. but not like random..if ONE WILLS..in TOTAL positive effect or impact however one may perceive IT…

but..

I publishNoW..

with more to come..

as

as

any

one

I am only a car accident away from

de@h

as

anyone else…

As

TH@

is

Truly the most dangerous thing we do…

Drive..

But

oh

yeah

People spend their insecurities..

on

fears

that

have

no logic…

And I will wait to post to

http://katiemiaaghogday.blogspot.com

and

http://katiemiafrederick.blogspot.com

until all the multimedia

elements

are

included as WordPress can be

much harder to open than Blogspot Blogs

with all the multimedia elements that I include

for

WHATEVER

reason…

But I’m certainly not complaining as most of IT is a wonderful

Gift provided by modern technology that takes up very few financial resources…

IT

IS

The best time for potential human creativity without regard to name, financial resources..

or

All the other disadvantages before that could keep truly gifted people from making their best

contribution to the total effect of potential survival for their species…

tHIS

IS

WH@

Social Animals Do…

They TAke care of each other..

In

Anyway they can…

Whatever the disability

may

be that might otherwise limit

their Contributions to the ALL Th@IS…

Last edited by aghogday on 11 Oct 2013, 2:00 pm, edited 1 time in total.

I think I might be getting the general gist of what you are saying. But I shall keep it to myself for now.

Hope you are well.

Thank you..this describes my experience for a little over 60 months..but now I am happier and healthier than when I was 21 as far as my perception of life goes..

Now the doctors will say I am simply in remission for all these difficulties..

But my faith is now strong enough to keep them away..

There is no doubt in my mind..

@ALL...

But again..thanks for your kind words...
friend...

Full updated text version here with typos corrected..

And sites with full multimedia included too..on the links updated below now..with the blogspot ones thrown in as they can be easier to open on slower computers than mine...imacs are great!

http://katiemiafrederick.com/2013/10/11/greitude/

http://katiemiafrederick.blogspot.com/2 ... itude.html

http://katiemiaaghogday.blogspot.com/20 ... itude.html



GRE@ITude
Posted on October 11, 2013 by katiemiafrederick


10112013

9

i

I talk a lot about Love, Light, lack of hate and personal judgement..and True Will.. but the greatest human attribute of all i see is human gratitude…

IN fact, if I had may way I would re-label this human attribute as GREAtitude..

IN fact..I might spell IT this way to get your attention..in fact..i think i will from NOWon..

So here IT IS…

GRE@ITude

And yeah the IT is included by fruition on purpose as an after effect for a culture programmed to see everything me..a subconscious go GitHer if one wills..TOgetHER…

AS IT…

Well here’s a little more personal history again which i can also apologize for as it is probably getting repetitive for anyone who is truly following my blog who KNOWnow my intent is fully positive in total effect…

Without sleep in 35 hours of sleep in 40 days with 1 hour each of the first 35 with assistance of an alpha blocker and none possible in the last 5 until hospitalization and a much more powerful drug..along with accompanying pain of atypical trigeminal neuralgia like dagger in the right eye and ear..along with fibromyalgia..severe arthritis with the congenitally fused T6 vertebrae..dysautonomia..vasovagal pre syncope..Sjogren Syndrome..severe anxiety..PTSD..Panic Attacks..Severe Depression..and other various issues.. including an Autism Spectrum Disorder..comes a place ‘none’ as hell..a place where every second can be a thousand years of human hell at the bottom of a pit of 40 almost sleepless days…

There is a place where there is a nothingness..that exists..where even the worst pain disappears and then there is hope for any pain to remove that nothingness from the existence that IS…

Time no longer has any many meaning.. so forever is 1 second in impact of a thousand metaphorical years of hell…

Well…

AS you might understand now..and then as became the case..even the experience of pain became a sacred experience for gratitude…and death that could elicit emotions in an otherwise stone cold heart became a pleasure greater than all others when a beloved pet that I could no longer truly love without emotions died..last April…

So now that I regained the human sight that I lost..I spend my time taking photos of nature and even my own face..celebrating both the beauty of nature and the expressions of my face that did not exist anywhere in my universe for about 60 months or so…

When ALL i had is letters, numbers and words..the letters and numbers became symbols for my Universe..as when mankind first developed them they were artistic expressions of the Universe that surrounded man in visible sight in connections in stars that cross the sky..and the golden spirals that make the nature of galaxies..Nautilus shells..fetuses..and all the other patterns of nature that exist and are shared across the Universe as a pattern of life of ALL th@ IS…

So now everything is sacred to me..even a blade of grass or a grain of sand..but you see this is the way I saw life as child anyway without going through the human hell that was my destiny to be after three.. some 40 to 50 years later..as the innocent child of forever I used to be…

And so wh@ can I do now but share this sacredness of ALL i see..

I say ‘seyes’ to ALL that IS..as ALL IS sacred even ADOLPH HITler..and the mythological being described as the devil..that is a symbol of the dark side of human nature that any human can fall to given the destiny of potential circumstances…

So I say evilivedevilive for one simple purpose..as what is above makes what is below what makes what is above..and the cycle of life goes on…

Yeah.. that movie the Lion King had IT correct as far as I see as the CIRclE of life goes on like a Golden Spiral..or a Nautilus shell…

And you see my friend..even if I Am dead now..this is my Nautilus shell…

As you come across IT…

NOW…

So I say what do you leave behind for others..inspiration to love and live or to hate and die…

IT is only your WiLL as if you come across this when I Am dead all I can do is pray for you now..in words..that you read at this moment NOW….

But in life It is the Passion Inspired by emotions that move humans ahead..and I do have this passion again NOw..so what I do is share..as IT is hard to keep that level of passion to one’s self alone…or @ONE….

wELl..I guess I have my new blog post now..

Titled Gre@ITude…

But no rush..as this one is still fresh..I guess…

And certainly with a title like IS IT OK to Luv Lucifer IT will be one of a kind for some time to come..on a Google search..for anyone to come across some of these unusual thoughts….

RAndomly.. but not like random..if ONE WILLS..in TOTAL positive effect or impact however one may perceive IT…

but..

I publishNoW..

with more to come..

as

as

any

one

I am only a car accident away from

de@h

as

anyone else…

As

TH@

is

Truly the most dangerous thing we do…

Drive..

But

oh

yeah!

People spend their insecurities..

on

fears

that

have

no logic…

And I will wait to post to

http://katiemiaaghogday.blogspot.com

and

http://katiemiafrederick.blogspot.com

until all the multimedia

elements

are

included as WordPress can be

much harder to open than Blogspot Blogs

with all the multimedia elements that I include

for

WHATEVER

reason…

But I’m certainly not complaining as most of IT is a wonderful

Gift provided by modern technology that takes up very few financial resources…

IT

IS

The best time for potential human creativity without regard to name.. financial resources..

or

All the other disadvantages before that could keep truly gifted people from making their best!

Contribution to the total effect of potential survival for their species…

tHIS

IS

WH@

Social Animals Do…

They TAke care of each other..

In

Anyway they can…

Whatever the disability

may

be that might otherwise limit

their Contributions to the ALL Th@IS…



Well..

My greatest gratitude in life IS…

Most definitely for Adversity..

The more severe.. the better so far…

But

Diversity

IS

FaR, FAR, Far,

a way

for

me..mm

NOW!

SO I WILL GO with the flow

for

NOW…

IT seems i’ve been

in the following videos

forever

with out leaving home!

My Personal!

THEME



Song

Way

to GO1!

SO!

IAM

GLAD

IAM

Born tHIS

perSON AS I understand

Fully

Wh@

IT

Means to be the

Underdog!

And cannot TRE@

Any

one

the way I was

treated in middle school..

told

I

did not

deserve to exist…

In too many ways to count!

So

yeah!

I AM changed

but

my roots are stILL

solID…

so once again me @13



And

me@53..





Well..

I guess I still have a little

feminine flair

if one

wills..

and

my wife viewed

me dancing in the back

yard in my underwear to

Madonna’s

Song

Frozen

and

said I danced

Gay..whatever that means…

so

I guess I’ll celebrate with these 2songs2..

as gay is Kool2..but yeah if anything I lean toward asexual

as

a

nother sexual orientation…

Sex IS

rather bland compared

to

Bliss..so please

do

not

feel too ‘bad’ for some of those

blissful priest folks either..the Catholic

Ones

ya may knownow…

But anyway here are the songs…

When I was in my twenties..I danced..

and I danced..and I danced..and I kept on dancing!

And I sang and played the piano and kept on singing and playing!

I’ll never

forget

an older woman in a beach

bar coming up to me and telling me I had the

best

butt

ever..for a man..

well..if that has anything

to do with gay looking dancing..

I’ll

take

I

t..

as any compliment..

IS GOoD.. and yeah..gay is Kool2!

When I first went to middle school at age 11

the boys

told

me

Hey f*****

and no that does not spell Fred…

Boys don’t smile like th@@ALL the time!

Yeah..

I smile now again..

and even prance my little finger

around

when

I do my superwalmart dancing!

AS I am free and unashqmed to be me!

i left

the Q4Queer bird…

As yeah! although I only ‘like’ girls!

I AM definitely what one calls a GAY BIRD!

a

mav

e

rick..

Frederick or whatever…

@least part of whatever that IS….

and well I still haven’t provided the songs…

but

I

t’s

reALLYinteresting now

as when you look big and strong you can

look

as gay as you want to prancing..dancing..spinning..

around Super Walmart and people will not even glance

at

you in

a demeaning way..

but the kids will laugh as they

are even kooler than me and fearless2…

I

suppose th@

IS wh@ IS called the

REvenge of the Nerds..as US Nerds

Geeks..Autistic Folks..oppressed..whoever..work

extra

hard to survive..

so in effect.. sometimes by the

time we reach our 50′s we become superhuman

in

Affect…

Didn’t look like there

was much chance that 13 year old boy

would be growing a six pack at 6FT and 222Lbs@53..

but

with

perseverance and the

will to survive anything and yes I do

mean anything is possible in this life…

so..

Thanks oppressors!

I took your unsolicited advice to

heart!

and

AM

stronger than you

could ever imagine making me..

through

your Kool

advice to get a way to survive…

so I did th@

and I can prove It2

as I can even curl 210 Lbs

with those

Fred Arms…2

And I suppose yOUR oppression was

also in effect..part of training to survive…

the

real problems

in life..per health issues in the last years…

So those

bullies..you are

my heroes in a very unusual way…

But since I didn’t have a father at home my biggest

hero IS the..

6 million dollar man…

no? i didn’t get that much money..but I did

eventually become the 6 million word man..and

have

been referred to

in the record at wrong planet

in

an oppressive spirited way..as the 7 thousand word man!

HA..HA..that’s kool!

Words are some of my

favorite friends..

and my other gratitude is for

anyone that can stand up to be my true friends..

I

feel like I have

@least one..which isgreaterthan none…

as I lived there for many years in my life…

of course family are always my true friends….

even

my f@her at times..although yeah!

he was afraid I was gay…

but not

any

more…

I’m lucky I wasn’t as suicide might

have been an option..

then!

So yeah…

I understand the value of supporting everyone..

in this life endeavor…

Even the bullies..

if one wills..

to

help them

find the light too..of love…

onemanship..or womanoneship…

for heSheship…for ALL!

ONE

NOWON!

ON course!

OF

COUrageCourse!

Oh CHR***

there goes the ADHD..so finally hear..here are those videos…

NOW!

including another timely one…

in a synchronistic kind of way..as I loved girls in kindergarden too…

in a romantic way…

I had no idea

what sex was..

even with instruction until i found my first girlfriend at 18 and she

showed me the way…

She was 15 but much smarter than me in that way….

I guess I just wasn’t meant to have children…someone had something else planned for me..after my one child..suffered and died…

He had the real challenge..ALL he livedevil IS pain…

And please do not try to tell me th@ babies are too young to know pain…

I AM still there…

with

hIM..2

[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hlVBg7_08n0&list=RD02hlVBg7_08n0[/youtube]

And I must be grateful to th@ saMe

first

girl friend for breaking

my heart as IT was the inspiration for my first

true experience with GOD in a verbal kind of way…

where

I could actually measure GOD in my life…

in an objective type of way..

as my logic always demanded proof of most everything in life…

But before th@

I was taught well 2fear the devil…th@ old

mythological creature…

that inspired the fear

of horns in

me…

then but certainly

not now..

as fearless is a way 2light

overall..when not warranted..of course…2

And God is only one to be revered and loved not feared…

iN

my

own

true will

opinion…

10122013

Columbus Day…

10

1

Most definitely IS going to be a gre@ITude DAY!

Oh yeah..and hearherearethoseother2songs..2





And I must honor girl ‘friend”Sonia’..top right..who showed me the way…

and inspired me

to find

GOD…

The Love greater than any

emotional or jealous love to one person…

And my wife and my baby who inspired the rest of my life….

and yes

NOW

2…

So yeah I am grateful

for suffering..2

@least mine…

AND MORE THAN

ANYTHING

LOVE

Experienced as in my childhood…



THAT

I

CAN GIVE

NOW THAT DID

NOT EXIST BEFORE…

DURING THOSE 60+ MONTHS

OF LIVING DEATH…

AND I HAVE

TO THANK

MY

MAGICK

FRIEND

WHITE

PEARL

FOR BRINGING

TH@ BACK TO ME THROUGH HER

GREAT FAITH IN WHAT SHE CALLS ALLAH OR

WHAT I

CALL

GOD..

OR THE ONE

THAT IS

ALL…

AND I’M SURE SHE

BRINGS IT TO MANY OTHERS..

ON HER

ANGEL

MAGICK

LOVEBLOG..2as her spirit..human..and ALLAH..

IS ALL and ONE to me…

for

3

2

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1

Third and likely final revision to make this the message I more fully intend...

Once again the three links to take one to the more fully meaningful text plus version with the multimedia elements providing for greater inspirational..Light..! !

If one wills..
If not that of course is OKtoo..2

http://katiemiafrederick.com/2013/10/11/greitude/

http://katiemiaaghogday.blogspot.com/20 ... itude.html

http://katiemiafrederick.blogspot.com/2 ... itude.html

GRE@ITude
Posted on October 11, 2013 by katiemiafrederick


10112013

9

i

I talk a lot about Love, Light, lack of hate and personal judgement..and True Will.. but the greatest human attribute of all i see is human gratitude…

IN fact, if I had my way I would re-label this human attribute as GREAtitude..

IN fact..I might spell IT this way to get your attention..in fact..i think i will from NOWon..

So here IT IS…

GRE@ITude

And yeah.. the IT is included by fruition on purpose as an after effect for a culture programmed to see everything me..a subconscious go GitHer if one wills..TOgetHER…

AS IT…

Well.. here’s a little more personal history again.. which i can also apologize for as IT is probably getting repetitive for anyone who IS truly following my blog who KNOWnow my intent is fully positive in total effect…

Without sleep in 35 hours of sleep in 40 days with 1 hour each of the first 35 with assistance of an alpha blocker and none possible in the last 5 until hospitalization and a much more powerful drug..after Total human exhaustion..along with accompanying pain of atypical trigeminal neuralgia like dagger in the right eye and ear..along with fibromyalgia..severe arthritis with the congenitally fused T6 vertebrae..dysautonomia..vasovagal pre syncope..Sjogren Syndrome..severe anxiety..PTSD..Panic Attacks..Severe Depression..Alexithymia…

ADHD..and other various issues.. including an Autism Spectrum Disorder..comes a place ‘none’ as hell..a place where every second can be a thousand years of human hell at the bottom of a pit of 40 almost sleepless days…

There is a place where there is a nothingness..that exists..where even the worst pain disappears and then there is hope for any pain to remove that nothingness from the existence that IS…

Time no longer has any many meaning.. so forever is 1 second in impact of a thousand metaphorical years of hell…

Well…

AS you might understand now..and then as became the case..even the experience of pain became a sacred experience for gratitude…and death that could elicit emotions in an otherwise stone cold heart became a pleasure greater than all others when a beloved pet that I could no longer truly love without emotions died..last April…

So now that I regained the human sight that I lost..I spend my time taking photos of nature and even my own face..celebrating both the beauty of nature and the expressions of my face that did not exist anywhere in my universe for about 60 months or so…

When ALL i had is letters, numbers and words..the letters and numbers became symbols for my Universe..as when mankind first developed them they were artistic expressions of the Universe that surrounded man in visible sight in connections in stars that cross the sky..and the golden spirals that make the nature of galaxies..Nautilus shells..fetuses..and all the other patterns of nature that exist and are shared across the Universe as a pattern of life of ALL th@ IS…

So now everything is sacred to me..even a blade of grass or a grain of sand..but you see this is the way I saw life as child anyway without going through the human hell that was my destiny to be after three.. some 40 to 50 years later..as the innocent child of forever I used to be…

And so wh@ can I do now but share this sacredness of ALL i see..

I say ‘seyes’ to ALL that IS..as ALL IS sacred even ADOLPH HITler..and the mythological being described as the devil..that is a symbol of the dark side of human nature that any human can fall to given the destiny of potential circumstances…

So I say evilivedevilive for one simple purpose..as what is above makes what is below what makes what is above..and the cycle of life goes on…

Yeah.. that movie ‘the Lion King’ had IT correct as far as I see as the CIRclE of life goes on like a Golden Spiral..or a Nautilus shell…

And you see my friend..even if I Am dead now..this is my Nautilus shell…

As you come across IT…

NOW…

So I say what do you leave behind for others..inspiration to love and live or to hate and die…

IT is only your WiLL as if you come across this when I Am dead all I can do is ‘pray’ for ‘you’ now..in words..that you read at this moment NOW….

But in life It is the Passion Inspired by emotions that move humans ahead..and I do have this passion again NOw..so what I do is share..as IT is hard to keep that level of passion to one’s self alone…or @ONE….

wELl..I guess I have my new blog post now..

Titled Gre@ITude…

But no rush..as this one is still fresh..I guess…

And certainly with a title like IS IT OK to Luv Lucifer IT will be one of a kind for some time to come..on a Google search..for anyone to come across some of these unusual thoughts….

RAndomly.. but not like random..if ONE WILLS..in TOTAL positive effect or impact however one may perceive IT…

but..

I publishNoW..

with more to come..

as

as

any

one

I am only a car accident away from

de@h

as

anyone else…

As

TH@

is

Truly the most dangerous thing we do…

Drive..

But

oh

yeah!

People spend their insecurities..

on

fears

that

have

no logic…

And I will wait to post to

http://katiemiaaghogday.blogspot.com

and

http://katiemiafrederick.blogspot.com

until all the multimedia

elements

are

included as WordPress can be

much harder to open than Blogspot Blogs

with all the multimedia elements that I include

for

WHATEVER

reason…

But I’m certainly not complaining as most of IT is a wonderful

Gift provided by modern technology that takes up very few financial resources…

IT

IS

The best time for potential human creativity without regard to name.. financial resources..

or

All the other disadvantages before that could keep truly gifted people from making their best!

Contribution to the total effect of potential survival for their species…

tHIS

IS

WH@

Social Animals Do…

They TAke care of each other..

In

Anyway they can…

Whatever the disability

may

be that might otherwise limit

their Contributions to the ALL Th@IS…



Well..

My greatest gratitude in life IS…

Most definitely for Adversity..

The more severe.. the better so far…

But

Diversity

IS

FaR.. FAR.. Far…

a way..

for

me..mm

NOW!

SO I WILL GO with the flow

for

NOW…

IT seems i’ve been

in the following videos

forever

with out leaving home!

My Personal!

THEME



Song

Way

to GO1!

SO!

IAM

GLAD

IAM

Born tHIS

perSON AS I understand

Fully

Wh@

IT

Means to be the

Underdog!

And cannot TRE@

Any

one

the way I was

treated in middle school..

told

I

did not

deserve to exist…

In too many ways to count!

So

yeah!

I AM changed

but

my roots are stILL

solID…

so once again me @13



And

me@53..





Well..

I guess.. I still have a little

feminine flair..

if one

wills..

and

my wife viewed

me dancing in the back

yard in my underwear to

Madonna’s

Song

Frozen

and

said I danced

Gay..whatever that means…

so

I guess I’ll celebrate with these 2songs2..

as gay is Kool2..but yeah if anything I lean toward asexual

as

a

nother sexual orientation…

Sex IS

rather bland compared

to

Bliss..so please

do

not

feel too ‘bad’ for some of those

blissful priest folks either..the Catholic

Ones

ya may knownow…

But anyway here are the songs…

When I was in my twenties..I danced..

and I danced..and I danced..and I kept on dancing!

And I sang and played the piano and kept on singing and playing!

I’ll never

forget

an older woman in a beach

bar coming up to me and telling me I had the

best

butt

ever..for a man..

well..if that has anything

to do with gay looking dancing..

I’ll

take

I

t..

as any compliment..

IS GOoD.. and yeah..gay is Kool2!

When I first went to middle school at age 11

the boys

told

me

Hey f*****

and no that does not spell Fred…

Boys don’t smile like th@@ALL the time!

Yeah..

I smile now again..

and even prance my little finger

around

when

I do my superwalmart dancing!

AS I am free and unashqmed to be me!

i left

the Q4Queer bird…

As yeah! although I only ‘like’ girls!

I AM definitely what one calls a GAY BIRD!

a

mav

e

rick..

Frederick or whatever…

@least part of whatever that IS….

and well I still haven’t provided the songs…

but

I

t’s

reALLYinteresting now

as when you look big and strong you can

look

as gay as you want to prancing..dancing..spinning..

around Super Walmart and people will not even glance

at

you in

a demeaning way..

but the kids will laugh as they

are even kooler than me and fearless2…

I

suppose th@

IS wh@ IS called the

REvenge of the Nerds..as US Nerds

Geeks..Autistic Folks..oppressed..whoever..work

extra

hard to survive..

so in effect.. sometimes by the

time we reach our 50′s we become superhuman

in

Affect…

Didn’t look like there

was much chance that 13 year old boy

would be growing a six pack at 6FT and 222Lbs@53..

but

with

perseverance and the

will to survive anything and yes I do

mean anything is possible in this life…

so..

Thanks oppressors!

I took your unsolicited advice to

heart!

and

AM

stronger than you

could ever imagine making me..

through

your Kool

advice to get a way to survive…

so I did th@

and I can prove It2

as I can even curl 210 Lbs

with those

Fred Arms…2

And I suppose yOUR oppression was

also in effect..part of training to survive…

the

real problems

in life..per health issues in the last years…

So those

bullies..you are

my heroes in a very unusual way…

But since I didn’t have a father at home my biggest

hero IS the..

6 million dollar man…

no? i didn’t get that much money..but I did

eventually become the 6 million word man..and

have

been referred to

in the record at ‘wrong planet’

in

an oppressive spirited way..as the 7 thousand word man!

HA..HA..that’s kool!

Words are some of my

favorite friends..

and my other gratitude is for

anyone that can stand up to be my true friends..

I

feel like I have

@least one..which isgreaterthan none…

as I lived there for many years in my life…

of course family are always my true friends….

even

my f@her at times..although yeah!

he was afraid I was gay…

but not

any

more…

I’m lucky I wasn’t as suicide might

have been an option..

then!

So yeah…

I understand the value of supporting everyone..

in this life endeavor…

Even the bullies..

if one wills..

to

help them

find the light too..of love…

onemanship..or womanoneship…

for heSheship…for ALL!

ONE

NOWON!

ON course!

OF

COUrageCourse!

Oh CHR***

there goes the ADHD..so finally hear..here are those videos…

NOW!

including another timely one…

in a synchronistic kind of way..as I loved girls in kindergarden too…

in a romantic way…

I had no idea

what sex was..

even with instruction until i found my first girlfriend at 18 and she

showed me the way…

She was 15 but much smarter than me in that way….

I guess I just wasn’t meant to have children…someone had something else planned for me..after my one child..suffered and died…

He had the real challenge..ALL he livedevil IS pain…

And please do not try to tell me th@ babies are too young to know pain…

I AM still there…

with

hIM..2

And I must be grateful to th@ saMe

first

girl friend for breaking

my heart as IT was the inspiration for my first

true experience with GOD in a verbal kind of way…

where

I could actually measure GOD in my life…

in an objective type of way..

as my logic always demanded proof of most everything in life…

But before th@

I was taught well 2fear the devil…th@ old

mythological creature…

that inspired the fear

of horns in

me…

then but certainly

not now..

as fearless is a way 2light

overall..when not warranted..of course…2

And God is only one to be revered and loved not feared…

iN

my

own

true will

opinion…

10122013

Columbus Day…

10

1

Most definitely IS going to be a gre@ITude DAY!

Oh yeah..and hearherearethoseother2songs..2

And I must honor girl ‘friend”Sonia’..top right..who showed me the way…

and inspired me

to find

GOD…

The Love greater than any

emotional or jealous love to one person…

And my wife and my baby who inspired the rest of my life….

and yes

NOW

2…

So yeah I am grateful

for suffering..2

@least mine…

AND MORE THAN

ANYTHING

LOVE

Experienced as in my childhood…

THAT

I

CAN GIVE

NOW THAT DID

NOT EXIST BEFORE…

DURING THOSE 60+ MONTHS

OF LIVING DEATH…

AND I HAVE

TO THANK

MY

MAGICK

FRIEND

WHITE

PEARL

FOR BRINGING

TH@ BACK TO ME THROUGH HER

GREAT FAITH IN WHAT SHE CALLS ALLAH OR

WHAT I

CALL

GOD..

OR THE ONE

THAT IS

ALL…

AND I’M SURE SHE

BRINGS IT TO MANY OTHERS..

ON HER

ANGEL

MAGICK

LOVEBLOG..2as her spirit..human..and ALLAH..

IS ALL and ONE to me…

for

3

2

http://foodpeopleloveandstuff.wordpress.com

1

And YES ALL the other INTERNET

FRIENDS!

[email protected] too…

Little did I know..

Th@

In effect..

ALL th@

work I

did

on my backyard would..

essentially.. eventually turn out to be..

A stadium sized grassy dance floor.. suitable

for

Nudists.. in privacy.. to dance and sing to the sun.. moon and stars…

Even

iF..

‘IT’ iS..anything else…

Hard to dismiss..the power of musicK..dance and

the positive effect

of

Creation Activity…

On

ALL

M@ters…

knownKnow to

shEWoMANKInd…

as ..WE.. i think.. should be

to each and all others..even a

grain

of

sand…

IF one WILLs

with

ONE will..please…

So to finish? this post a few

more pictures of inspiration of the

aLIVE!

me

if one wills..

and

amazing how when one moves into

fiery focussing positive mind..what results…

as almost

miracles

in

the most mundane of life experiences…

As long as one

does

not

forget to play..

as director.. writer.. and actor..

of there

own

play…

noT

a vicarious one in a

nother

play…

So play on and live STRONg!

And when the Sun ever shows you IT IS a heart!

Believe IT..

if one wills…

Why NOT?

There is nothing to lose but a

soul..

SUN

aND

NO

I

AM

nOT a body builder..

I

am

anhEartist…

or..

a soul

builder…

YEA..H
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