I believe in god sometimes because when I am feeling weary and disconnected as a result of unceasingly searching for final causes/sufficient first causes for everything, feeling ragged from the vigilance and anxiety of keeping all my "senses" alert for clues, evidence and other signs to decide what everything means, why and forever and etc, it helps take a load of pressure off.
I believe in god sometimes because I want to celebrate, to thank, to jubilate.
I believe in god whenever I remember/"grasp" that free-will does not exist, because I get such a sense of being part of one thing, one huge process that the only word that feels big enough for it is god.
I believe in god sometimes when I want to cheer myself up. Thinking about god creating/writing the university as we speak; that's funny. Feels like company for a moment too.
Helps me be aware of the matrix of words too, like a virtual reality that I live in almost without pause, except at night in dreams.
I have been able to believe in god because after reading about it I think that belief in god is a precious prosthetic device which has evolved to fill the cognitive space/gap created by frontal lobe development in humans in the last 15,000-30,000 years or so.
The evolution of fluid intelligence which recognises patterns, creates meaning out of chaos, attributes cause, assigns agency, may have resulted in a kind of "hunger" for final first causes, definitive explanations, in many people, which life does not generally satisfy.
Although I love thinking and thinking, I also get tired of it, and need a rest sometimes, and belief in god is that. Like I can drop my burden of seeking the meaning of that, etc etc.
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