Magnus wrote:
Sand, state a truth that feels repulsive.
Here are two that occurred to me personally.
My son at the age of three was struck by a stupid driver and rendered quadriplegic for the remainder of his 33 three year life so that he had to spend the rest of his life paralyzed from the neck down on a respirator with frequent horrifying crises as to whether he would survive from pulmonary congestion or urinary blockages. Throughout the period of his life my wife and I had to rush to the hospital in panic in the early morning hours to administer hand pumping when his respirator ceased functioning properly. He was an exceptionally bright guy and his last words when his kidneys failed were "Save me!" and I had to sit by his bed and helplessly watch him die. He was born in Tennessee a US citizen and his own country would do nothing to help him. Only by the grace of President Kekkonen in Finland was he granted Finnish citizenship (since my wife is a Finn) to permit him to have whatever life he had. He was an exceptionally intelligent and wonderful guy and his death overshadows everything else in my life.
Currently my wife is suffering from bone cancer which has metastasized throughout her body and is totally bedridden in continuous pain and we are doing our best to help her but there isn't much we can do.
These things are true. They can in no way to be construed as beautiful by anyone with any compassion or intellect whatsoever.
The world currently and incessantly is full of people undergoing personal horrors equal to and worse than my own experiences. This is true and undeniable. To find these things beautiful in any way is a gross perversion of the concept of beauty.