I glorify my rage...

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Whenever someone is mean to me, i build up an enormous hate inside. I almost worship it and fantasize about mutilating the target individual, chewing off body parts and drinking their blood. The human brute force has always fascinating me. Being able to decapitate a person with my bare hands is something I fantasize about.

Of course, I could never commit such an act. But the thoughts are pretty scary.
I always sympatize the bad guy in movies, one good example is star wars episode III when the emperor uses his electric hands. I remember seeing that thinking "holy s**t! I'd love to pull that off".

Do any of you have similar thoughts or am I just a nutcase? What can I do to stop this?
I know I could never do anything like that, cause I look upon myself as a loving individual respecting all life. These thoughts are very disturbing.

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I think a lot of people fantasize about hurting certain people out of anger.

i fanticize about hurting ppl sometimes...though not about chewing body parts and drinking blood(tastes like metal, and you could get AIDS!)

I thought of hurting my ex boyfriend all the time when we were together. I wanted to hit him, punch him, stab him, and shoot him and hide his body in the celler and pretend the whole thing never happened. Before that, I hadn't had violent thoughts in my head since 2005 when I thought an employee was telling lies about me to my boss to get me in trouble so I wanted to get back at her by making her life miserable somehow to show her who not to mess with because I may seem like a sweet innocent young woman and seem incapable of doing aweful things but when you mess with me, watch out. But they all turned out to be misunderstandings when I talked to my boss.

Back when I was in school and living at home, I had violent thoughts all the time.

Yes, it is kind of a paradox knowing that I am a good person and that I could never ever hurt another human being that way and still I have these thoughts and fantasies. I don't dare talking to my psychologist about this because of the extremity of the subject. I know that I can talk to psychologists about everything, but its so hard sitting there trying to make eye contact and at the same time open myself up like that. I feel that she sees right through me...
I don't wish to have these thoughts anymore because no one is really being mean to me anymore. Still, these thoughts pop up where I create imaginary persons that I hurt. I don't know why this happens and I want it to stop!
I have always had a strong sense of justice and injustice upsets me more than anything. I remember my ex-girlfriend told me she was raped when in a foreign country. She was drugged down(rohypnol in drink) and raped. She woke up outdoors remembering nothing about the appearance of the rapist.
This upsets me, and I still think about it even though the relationship ended over half a year ago. The thought about him walking away from it with no punishment makes me hate him even more. And I KNOW that if I ever found out where he lived, I'd perform what I like to call a "blunt force castration" which means kicking him in the groin until his genitals resemble nothing but a red pulp.
I'd torture him for weeks, drive him mentally insane, give him insane high amount of LSD so he gets a bad trip.
This however, I am not ashamed of thinking.
A few months ago she told me that she was raped AGAIN this summer. She was invited to this guy she met downtown and he really boozed her up. She knows his name, where he lives etc but doesn't want to tell me.
The fact that our breakup caused a huge depression for her and led to alcohol abuse makes me think that it's my fault. Maybe If we had stayed together, it would never have happened. Then, she wouldn't have the desire to go out and get drunk.
The injustice in this case is insane. The only punishment he got was deportation.

I wish him to suffer for the rest of his life, but I am unable to make that happen since he now lives on the other side of the earth.

I have violent thoughts almost all the time i want to torture and kill the people who tormented me for no reason and heres the way i would do it:

1.Beat them with a shovel 150 times.
2.Stick a chainsaw up their rectum.
3.Stab them with a knife a dozen times.
4.Kill them with a gun to where it would hurt most.
5.Hide the bodys so noone can accuse me.

Brutal ain't it???

If anyone finds out however i'll go into hiding for 10 years...

What use are such fantasies? None.

Tell them off, psychologically eviscerate them, and make them feel as sh***y as they try to make you feel. Most people will back the hell off in a hurry if you do that, in my experience.

Wow, you sound exactly like me, no joke. I always sided with the bad/evil angry person as long as I can remember. I am consumed with hatred and think about doing stuff to people when I'nm trying to sleep at night. Like how to perfectly murder them and hide it. I won't do it, though. so don't worry.

Hang them by the balls in a random tree..., riiiiiiippppppp, balls of, skull open.

tearing peoples limbs off has always been my angry thought, and beating the remaining body with one of the limbs until the f****r stops moving

Yes, and whenever the sith lords in starwars speak of hate with such enthusiasm. I remember seeing the movies as a kid, it sent shivers down my spine. I always wanted to be like the emperor. To electrocute people while laughing manically...

I get disapointed by most horror movies since 99% of them have happy endings...