What do you hate the most about Aspergers?

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For me personally would be the genuine lack of emotion most of the time, my near monotone way of speaking, and my complete uninterest in things that concern teenagers these days, my emotional and physical isolation, my awkwardness in conversation, and finally my trust in others, as in I do not expect to be lied to but that may be because I am, for all intents and purposes, honest, brutally honest as I put it, which is something people have a hard time grasping because I am very black and white. That would probably be a good summary of what causes people to be annoyed by me. Then of course there is the fact no one knows I have aspergers (the diagnosis was only last month) so that helps. People mostly think that I am odd. Or crazy when they think I cannot hear them.

Nothing wrong in my opinion. If I was a "normal general ed" student I would probably be doing football, basketball and baseball for both league and high school, text friends all the time and go to the movies with 15 of my closest cute girls. I probably wouldn't give a ( ) about the teachers or bus drivers, but instead, I have several friends but only a couple are big best friends, and most of my friends in elementary and junior high were the teachers, aides and the school bus drivers. I still have friendships with several teachers and my bus drivers in the school district I am in now. I blab with them a lot - maybe too much! My district is pretty lean on bus rules - no eating, no fighting, remain seated, etc. while other districts have rules that say "students may not talk to the bus driver". That doesn't apply with me...
I don't care for sports either. Watching them - yes. But playing them - no. After getting a low score on a cross country meet, and then going into a meltdown over it, I didn't do any more school sports. I'd probably suck at everything.

The bullying I'm exposed to because of it.
The sensory issues.
The meltdowns, especially depression meltdowns.
Being the only Aspergirl in my school.
The stress of having to socially interact with people every day.
But most of all...
My school suspected I had AS back when I was 10 years old and being referred to them. Yet even after having no friends, being bullied, getting in trouble though I didn't know what I did wrong, and my hair falling out from extreme stress...I was only told 3 months before my 16th birthday, and my parents only found out because I told them what the school told me.

Being misunderstood/not being able to understand others, probably.

The sensory stuff. I'm perfectly content with having no friends and being isolated, but that stupid garbage truck is just driving me insane! Also eye contact

I don't hate Asperger's but it does get a bit annoying when my family members take the piss out of my odd behaviour and quirks from time to time.

self hatred, the way i look awkward and weird in most pictures taken of me, what is said when people who are ignorant about ADS try to talk to me about it, and how it impairs your ability to form connections...leaving some lonely, unsuccessful...
and the little obsessions.

I don't really mind having Asperger's syndrome itself, but it's the other people who have it and NTs that have little or false knowledge of it that big me.

I find a good few Aspies who use Aspergers as an excuse for everything, and make a bad name for us. And then there's people who call us ret*ds. They're the worst...

With the actual disorder, the trait I dislike most would probably be the social anxiety.

The fact that I don't understand saracasm, my emotional immaturity, spd, suicidal thoughts, or that I sometimes appear emotionless. :

i get suicidal thoughts too, all the time. been pulled out of class for them. i was interrogated for 4 hours today at school with multiple counselors and a police officer, not strictly about my suicide related thoughts but it came up quite a bit of times.
they aren't an aspie exclusive trait though, tons and tons of NTs and other neurodiverse individuals get them at this point of our lives, sadly end up acting on them, these ages are a maelstrom of emotions.

appearing emotionless sucks. you can deliver all sorts of wrong messages if you constantly wear a poker face and don't express yourself verbally. perhaps the most annoying is
"are you ok?? do you want anything"

"i'm fine, thanks"
i appreciate their concern, but sometimes i feel bad for being so closed about myself and expecting them to be mind readers.

The easily raised anxiety, being misinterpreted - and even worse, being the one, who misinterprets.

Before I used to hate myself for having Asperger but now I'm really proud to have it to be honest but I still hate it when I can't connect to others and be with others, I hate feeling a lone, I hate being misunderstood, i hate being called crazy and dumb for some behaviors which come from it.