Life for people with AS/HFA from ages 13 14 and 15

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I am 14 with a few freinds. I get through it all by just focusing on schoolwork at school and hiding in the basement when I get home.

I just ignore them mostly.
My mother and grandfather are trying to push more girly clothes on me but I am resisting.
I dress in the same thing winter and summer (denim pants or shorts and a short t shirt.)
I just get over it when I lose a friend.
I am home schooled though so I am not around people at much it would be SO MUCH harder for me if I went to a PS.
So for the most part I ignore how different I am.

Until a little under a year ago, I had very few friends, no one who I considered to be a close friend. When I was about 12 I started to become more and more aware of how isolated I was from my peers, until I became interested in Anime/Manga and found friends, and started playing D&D with some people from school. Being more self aware was really the thing that made life hell in my earlier teens.

So far my teen years are balancing out to be okay. I'm overweight and when my doctor finally was like either she levels out her weight or we have to go see a nutritionist and do a blood test and she had weighed me in the early morning that day, two months weighed me in the late afternoon and I had gained 4 pounds. Fluctuation. Anyways it devastated me I spent months killing that person in my mind and emailing my deleted email address about how terrible she was and what a witch and how she isn't exactly toned or whatnot herself. And I got my period. And you know how some mothers get onto their kids for dressing older than they are? Well mine gets on to me because I need to start looking like a young lady. I freakin don't care! Right now all I want is an official yes you're an aspie or no you're not (and the iphone 4s.)
Lost three friends. One before the year ended and at they end of the year they all moved and they didn't want to keep in touch. What bothered me was that I knew I was a loner and it didn't bother me. I aleays have been. In second and third grade I had like three friends and when they were absent I played alone. I also lost a friend in second grade but thats unrelated.

I feel like my EF problems are getting worse and my life is going on a downward plummet. I guess I only like it right now because
1. I still have friends
2. My friends are some of the most tolerant people ever
3. I talked to my crush without giggling or sounding stupid
4. I still get good grades because I am an all-around GENIUS! Not officially but I am definitely either the first or second smartest in my home school group.

Reasons I don't really like it
1. Lost five friends in the past three years.
2. Executive functioning is declining as I have a larger workload
3. People @ the PS act like I'm not there a lot of the time.
4. I STILL don't have a diagnosis!