half my life is a blur. it bugs me.
my 'earliest memory', i have a few choices..
>this may have been a dream from a later period, or not, but i can recall being right outside a hospital-like building, it was late at night and everything had a very deep, navy blue tint to it. it was nit just the darkness, but it was almost as if everything, the sky, the buildings, were tinted blue, or i was seeing the world through blue cellophane.
the strangest part, was i was SEEING MY PARENT'S OWN VAN from the outside, not from the inside looking in, like i was perched on something.
flash forward, i am inside a hospital room with all sorts of sinister looking gadgets, hooks, pincers, scythes, a large room, like some sort of torture chamber, and again with the blue tint.
i can only conclude that this was my younger sister's birth. i was two. but why would my mother choose to deliver my sister in a dark torture chamber of all places??
(i know. the latter parts are most likely a figment of my imagination, or it wasn't my sisters birth at all. if not, what?)
>being in mexico, around four years old. i remember a toy train, chopped ham, wanting 80 spanks (in retrospect, i was given around 15, but he counted to 'ochenta'), EXTREMELY crowded streets, and stopping at a corner store to get a dum dum lollipop. i went to that same place, with the same people, earlier this very month.
>living in an apartment, and walking around wearing a baby 'leotard' or one piece or whatever it is called.
kraftiekortie wrote:
I remember when we moved to a new apartment when I was 3
i remember moving AWAY from the above mentioned apartment when i was around 5, to the house we live in currently. it was independence day here in the states, we saw the fireworks on the same day i recall our (ex) fridge being carried away on an old pickup.
the first dream i have about someone or someplace always holds a special place in my heart.
i hope none of you guys develop memory loss, or if it has happened, that it does not worsen. they're a wonderful thing to have, and more importantly to me, to share.
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