This is a poem i wrote thinking about being an AS teenager

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I wrote this thinking about being AS at a young age and how it affects my life in so many good ways, yes, we may be loners in life, but having to be independent all the time makes us a stronger, and more caring person than Nts in my opinion.
I did put this on the writing forum, but i wanted to share it on here too since i think it has more meaning to younger people who are put through so much more peer pressure


"The Eagles Eye", By Bradley Thompson

The strongest heart stands alone, while the weak quiver and shake among a crowd, trying to cover themselves from the cruel realities of life.

An eagle soars among the heavens in a small group, and gracefully he flies, his head high, and his wingspan stretching across the four corners of the world. Below him, the crows gather, hundreds, scrounging off of what the world has tossed at them. They scrounge for dreams that have already been taken and have been dried from overuse, while the skies stay fresh in the eagle’s eye.

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in December i put a poem i wrote about my internal feelings about my AS, i named the poem autism i put it in the Arts section, it was about how there are many positives and negatives that come with AS and that i have a love/hate relationship with my autsim because of that....if you wanna check it out

http://www.wrongplanet.net/postt145569.html

its my first pom about autism, it kinda gets a little repetitive because i couldnt find anything to rhyme with autism that would be relevant to the message in the poem, but the people who responded to it said that they feel very similarly about it so at least i caught the right feelings

I think its a great poem , I love the style and its very true to the feelings of Autism , I agree i feel the exact same way about autism as you do in the poem, how you are saying that sometimes its a blessing, sometimes its a curse, but itll always be with us , great poem!

thanks, actually i wrote it as part of my AP English Final for the first semester, i wrote that poem about my autism and a 5 page essay on my eye disease, i couldnt read anything that personal in front of the class so i asked my teacher to read it, he did and a lot of people complimented me on them

Yeah i bet that would be hard to say in front of the class, i havent even told any of my friends im an Aspie, and i probably would never actually write an essay about it that other kids could hear, so i seriously think its incredible that you were brave enough to do that ! You know if you still have the essay id like to read it, im thinking of maybe telling some of my friends about being AS and reading something that i know other people have heard might give me an idea of how i can tell others.

all my friends know im an aspie, they know im different and they accept me still, they said that what they love about me the most is how honest i am, i never pretend to be anything im not...i present myself as i am and people either take it or leave it

they even help me explain to other people im an aspie when people notice im different

my friends are very cool about it

and idk if i kept my essay because we moved 3 weeks ago to a new town and i threw away a lot of old papers i mean i could have but im not sure i would have to look around for it, but the essay was a personal narrative about the disease in general, i went step-by-step regarding the surgeries and basically talked about how it affected my life(there is SO much i can never do know because if i get ANY head injury i RISK going blind, i think it depends where i get hit though because earlier this year in welding a ball pien hammer fell on my head and i had to go home cuz i noticed a sharp pain in my right eye and increase in eye pressure but it went away within a few hours)

Dont worry about trying to find it, what you just said is pretty much what i needed to know, you know if your friends would still accept you for who you are, And man that eye disease must really suck if you have to avoid injuring yourself all the time, i dunno about you but i whack my head off things constantly because i can never pay attention on where im walking, and im just flat out clumsy, Zero hand eye coordination lol.

im like that also but i been learning


my biggest problem is people, like there this guy that used to hang out with us named Moody, he was a major druggie and hella crazy and paranoid he got into a fight earlier that day and broke his arm then he randomly attacked me so all my buddies were instantly up with their knives out telling him to leave then he went and sent his best friend to the hospital with his broken arm it was crazy thankfully i havent seen him since

but yeah anyone who tries to mess with me, my friends have my back, anyone who messes with me messes with them and my friends are not the type to f**k with, hell most of them pretty successful drug dealers, none involved in gangs or anything we dont like gangs, my buddy Tony put it this way, if a gang member comes up to you and asks you what you bang you tell them "I bang women, if you bang anything else your a fa***t.....what you bang?" lol but yeah i have NO friends involved in gangs or anything and even though most do deal drugs, they like my family they have always been there for me....they even the only people who ever seen me cry because i NEVER cry in public unless i have a pretty damn good reason to and they were there to comfort me and help me through my problems

im also one of the few people that my friend Zack's parents consider family(Zack's house is where EVERYONE of us always hangs out, i smoked weed with his mom and dad and snorted Vyvanse with her dad because they hella awesome parents. the day after my suicide attempt a few weeks ago Zack's dad was the first person i went to, even before my own mom


despite my disease, i try my best to live a pretty interesting life lol and i think i succeeded there haha they actually really great people and they are awesome to hang out with, i just hate that i moved sure i only moved to the next town over but i cant get a license because my disease, my eye sight changes too much, and usually for the worse, for me to be a safe driver so im now VERY limited to how much time i have to hang out with them

Interesting, I never use drugs. I always thought that life was hard enough and my life would only get worse if i ran around high all the time, if i ever got high i would probably wake up sitting on the hedges in my front lawn with my underwear on my head,while there is a burning house behind me, or something like that lol. so i never do drugs.

well what i found out, for me anyway, is that when im high im more confident and all my social phobias are broken down and then afterwards when im not high the confidence lingers and allows me to better socialize when im not high as well and also the more and longer i smoke(as in days not sessions) the longer the confidence remains like i have not gotten high in nearly 2 weeks and im still very self confident chances are it will start to go away within the week though but for me anyway the more i get high the better my life is when im not high

and cannabis is a great way for the socially inept to have fun with people because it breaks down social, economic, and cultural barriers as well as allows you to talk to people you never thought you would be able to talk to and i am already a very honest person about myself but im even more honest while high, i always say what i truly feel and it has been such a rewarding experience for me, i was even able to get the confidence(when i wasnt high) to get my 2nd kiss in my life just 2 weeks ago, before that my 1st kiss was 4 years ago in my freshman year, i never would have had the confidence to do it i kissed my friend Lexi twice well the first time i kissed her the second time she kissed me, and yes on the lips, my first kiss was a series of half hour makeout sessions behind the school with my friend Janai, even though this was my first kiss in 4 years we didnt make out or anything just kissed but it was nice i forgot wat a womans lips tasted like, i missed it

the only downside was when my mom caught me 2 months ago and i was grounded for nearly a month but i have been smoking since 8th grade, well a few months before 8th grade ended, the frequency i smoke depends on how i feel, some times i go months smoking every day all day and sometimes i go months maybe smoking once or twice, the frequency i smoke really depends on whether i feel like smoking at that moment or not


i NEVER smoke tobacco, and only VERY occasionally drink alcohol, usually when i do they have a toast in my honor because thats how rare it is to see me drink though i have been drunk twice and i LOVED it, it was really fun, my friend Matt said he was surprised i wasnt arrested for walking down the street lol

Now let me start off by saying im not trying to judge you for doing drugs, but its just that drugs are really harmful to your body. Maybe what you should really look into is a community group that helps to boost self esteem, I know what your thinking" your nuts if you think im gonna go to some group for my problem, the only people who go there are weirdo emo people". But it really isnt that crazy. You know i used to have a major confidence/depression problem when i was younger, and there were even days where i thought suicide and going to hell would be better than actually living on earth. But when i went to a church youth group for teens who were having different problems, my whole life was changed and i became so much more confident and proud about who i was they taught me that you shouldnt worry about what others think and focus more on the good things about yourself. And the best part is your learning this along with other teens who are going through a lot of the same self esteem problems i was going through. My sister used to be a drug addict, she used to have two brand new cars, was getting high honor roll at her college, a brand new house, and a young daughter she loved ver much, but when she did drugs she got in a lot of trouble, and she lost everything, cars were repoed, her daughter was taken away and moved in with us, and she was left with nothing. No college degree either, shes clean now but to this day she can never get a job anywhere, not even at Mcdonalds, because people wont hire drug addicts,she got her daughter back but shes not even allowed to watch her play soccer cause schools wont let her on school property. I just am really afraid that your addiction will get worse, you seem like such a smart kid who has so much acedemic potential, and i would hate to see someone like you lose your life to drugs

relax its only cannabis, fast food is worse for your body than cannabis seriously, and i can get it legally for medicinal purposes but as a minor i need my mom to sign off on it but she wont so i need to wait until January when im 18 then i wont even be breaking the law

in the years i have been smoking it has been invaluable to my social life and idk why but my freshman year(a few months after i started) is when i got really interested in learning, i love going on wikipedia adventures and anything that piques my interest i research even further, i mainly research philosophy, and existentialism as well as politics(i LOVE politics)

before i started smoking weed, i was a social outcast, social phobic, introverted, suicidal, freak with no friends aside from my cat and my video games i also greatly suffer from Severe Inferiority Complex and Avoidant Personality Disorder because of 6 years i spent with a mentally, emotionally, and borderline physically abusive step father i originally turned to cannabis as an escape from him but after awhile i realized how positively it was affecting my life and i started to pay attention to the patterns and i thank cannabis so much for improving my life beyond measure, there is nothing wrong with it thats why its legal medically and its only a matter of time before its completely legal because people are finally learning its very harmless

everyone is always nice to each other when they are high i have NEVER met a violent pot head or well not a violent one thats violent while high because it brings peace, acceptance, brotherhood, and unity to all who partake and even those who dont like my friend Dustin he is straight edge he doesnt do drugs and never will, he is there when we do drugs though and no one judges him for it on the contrary we respect him for it but even though he the odd man out everyone accepts him like they do everyone else, it makes hanging out with friends more fun and it makes the boring a LOT less boring

now im not trying to say that you should because thats a personal choice and its not my place im just trying to make you understand that its benefits far outweigh the downsides, and the only downside is that it can cause chronic lung disease when you smoke it but thats because your breathing in burning plant matter so of course but turning it into edibles or smoking out of a vaporizer actually negate the only bad effects on your health because the only bad effects on your health are from smoking it so if you dont smoke it then you do NO damage to your body, besides humans were mean to consume it, we have cannabinoid receptors in our brains and kidneys and i THINK the liver also but without those getting high would be impossible it would have no effect on the human body

and the chemicals released in the brain when your high are the same chemicals released when your deeply in love with someone(yes it is true love is a drug and you do get high from love and its very kinda similar to a marijuana high but cannabis has Delta 9 TetraHydroCannibinol which in addition to the natural love chemicals gets that distinct high(Delta-9 THC is a MILD hallucinogen but you gotta smoke A LOT to hallucinate, i never have personally well not from weed anyway)

again i am not trying to tell you to smoke it, i am merely explaining that it is not as harmful as people say and that it has great benefits for autistic people because it removes social barriers allowing us to thrive in the N/T community which makes our lives MUCH easier, well its made my life much easier when it comes to other people

btw my life goal is to become a scientist, a BioMedical Gerontologist to be exact, but first i want to open up a massage parlor because the ONE skill i naturally possess is my hands, i do give great massages, i massage my friends and my mom even pays me to massage her boyfriends back and he loves my massages i like to joke with my mom and say "Is it strange i can make you boyfriend moan better than you can?" its hilarious though because i can, and i normally need to massage near spine in between shoulder blades thats where he needs it the most, my friend Bryan(he is 32) he says what he loves about my massages is i instinctively know where the problem is and i fix it so i guess thats a good thing so before i become a scientist i would like to capitalize a bit on the one skill i have

I will admit that Marijuana or canibus is a less harmful drug than most, and i agree its better than drugs that make you all psycho. So you say you like to research things on the internet, thats kool because i do the same thing, I am right on the same page as you with politics, what makes me mad right now is Michelle Obama is running around taking these lavish trips spending tons of money to go to countries that dont even want her there, while here in Pa were taking money out of school funding! that just ticks me off! Just last night i was researching the origins of zombies. I guess how it started is from voodoo priests who were sold into slavery, if a slave was about to be sold onto another plantation the voodo priest on ther plantation would take a special plant and make a potion that makes you appear dead(much like romeo and Juliet), after the slave was buried he/she would be dug up out of the ground, and kept in hiding by the slaves. pretty freaky if you ask me! I like to research a lot of different spirtual practices like voodo, wicca, stuff like that since my great grandfather was a Native American shaman(medicine man as called at the time) and i think its kool how people use elements of nature to heal. Im christian but I personally like to use stones for healing, i believe stones have healing properties, like quartz, quartz promotes your awareness of your surroundings and is great for clearing your mind, its even said quartz promotes psychic awarness but ive never seen the future while holding it. i just find stuff like that fascinating. I think its interesting your interested in being a masseuth, i think thats what you call it. sord of an odd job to be interested in doing but i guess when backs get all twisted up someone needs to get the knots out. So what are your other interests xactly, or what else do you research online?

no no no you got it all wrong zombies originated with the virus Solanum, Max Brooks said so in the Zombie Survival Guide

well i am a Transhumanist, Futurist, Techno-Progressivist, and Immortalist

i am a part of the Life Extension Movement, thats why i aspire to be a BioMedical Gerontologist, thats the study of Life Extension through the manipulation of the aging process

last November Harvard Scientists reversed the aging in mice, they said it could be done to humans but it using adding the enzyme telomerase to repair the telomeres in the cells, the telomeres are the caps on top of the chromosomes that constantly are sequencing a never ending stream of DNA and each time the cell divides the telomeres get smaller and smaller until the telomeres disappear and then the cell itself will die shortly after which is what causes us to age, we naturally have telomerase in us but most is inactive when we are adults except for in a few select cells because it can cause cancer in humans for this reason: what happens to cells, if they continuously reproduce without dying because the telomeres are constantly being repaired? why the answer is simple the body becomes cancerous and that is why it cannot be used to reverse or possibly even stop the aging in humans, not until cancer is cured

i created my own Thesis last year on Indefinite Life Extension it utilizes technology we have today but today the technology is not advanced enough so maybe 30-40 years down the road will my Thesis become relevant, basically last year Dr. Craig Venter and his team created the first synthetic life, they took a bacteria of the Mycoplasma genus and removed its DNA and replaced it with 100% man made DNA turning it into a whole NEW species they called it Mycoplasma Laboratorium, my Thesis involved Synthetic Biology and Stem Cell research basically upon reaching the correct technological level(within the next few decades) we create an artificial bio-organic organ that is engineered to naturally produce Stem Cells and whenever cells die or the body takes damage the stem cells are released to heal that area in a matter of minutes, think Wolverine from X-Men as an acceptable visual of what i mean. my biggest problem is if the organ over-produces stem cells it can become cancerous
*NOTE: If anyone reproduces my thesis in any shape or form please give credit where credit is due, even though it utilizes modern day, albeit new, technology the application that i have thought up is 100% original, though i would prefer if no one did reproduce my thesis(no this isnt whole thing this is summary, my actual thesis goes in depth to as many details as i can) i intend for this to be my doctoral thesis one day after i have been in school for these subjects so i can make modifications to the thesis when and where i can.

EVERY major Life Extension Theory is very sound EXCEPT each one ran into the same exact obstacle, Cancer, so if cancer is cured theoretically we CAN potentially live forever, or as long as we decide to live anyway

the science is there, and it shows it is VERY feasible but not possible until cancer is cured


the search for immortality goes back to the Dawn of Man the OLDEST known piece of writing in the world, The Epic of Gilgamesh written 10,000 years ago now, is about the search for immortality, and the search has cintinued for over 10,000 years the problem is they were looking for magic, the Philosophers Stone, the Fountain of Youth, etc. but the answer lies within science: Biotechnology, Bioengineering, Synthetic Biology, Synthetic Genomics, etc. that is how immortality is going to be achieved it has already been proven to work, except we will die by cancer if we try it now

only one person so far has seen my entire thesis that i have currently, that was my AP English teacher last year who, as well as enjoying running marathons(he came in 2100th place out of 22,000 in the Boston Marathon last month) and English, also enjoys mathematics and science. Mr. Rhoades had actually been the one who pointed out the most fatal flaw in my thesis, the cancer issue, and so i have no way of continuing until the issue of cancer is fixed unfortunately im not sure how long that will take for todays scientists to cure it, but hopefully its cured when i actually join the field so that i can focus on the meat and potatoes of my work, it wasnt easy to think of this and it will be even harder to bring it to life

and im hoping no one else will see my entire thesis until i have completed it fully as well as completed school

Well i think its great that your thinking outside of the box, sorry i really wish i could join in on what your saying but im more of a supernatural and spiritual researcher than science. But if it helps i support your thesis all the way even though i only understood the part about dna, sorry the last science class i had was 9th grade basic biology lol. so dna is all we learned