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For the past almost three years I have had the same special imterest and all of a sudden today I've felt a huge lapse in my want to be connected to it. I really feel like I am not ready for this to happen, which is strange since I have never felt that way when losing an interest before, normally I am ready to move on to something else when the time comes but I don't feel I am! I am not sure If this could be because I am not going straight into another interest as I have done for almost six years and I'm not quite sure who I am without an interest. Also my interest in twilight has brought me into a world where other teenagers live and I felt I had something I could relate to them with!
My second problem is I am in the middle of a story I've been writing about the characters related to my interest. I love the story and really feel in want/ have to finnish it. I owe it to both myself and my readers to do this and if I am going into the end of my interest, which I could well be doing but also may not be, I know I won't feel as enclosed to Finnish the story I'm real not sure how to keep going and keep my interest in the story.
My third and most important thing is I have gained a lot of friends- usin this in some cases as a loose term for people who can hold a good conversation with my and some who really are becoming friends- while having this one interest. These people have never knowing me being into anything else. I don't want to lose friends by suddenly jumping from being on love with something to liking it but not thinking about it that much. I really don't know what to do if Thai has to happen, out of natural inbuilt fear only my closest friends have known I am an Aspie up till now but I have thought it might be easier to explain this sudden shirt if I told them. I font know how I would do this since my closest friends probably cant even remember me telling them since we were all little kids and didn't even know what I meant back then.
I might even be getting ahead of myself throughout today I have still had a lot of thoughts related to my interest, I had loads this morning, this is make in me thinking is another fear lapse, I have lapses of quick interests in other subjects which fill me with all these questions and after a few days or weeks my interest comes back stronger again. I have never had this happen without a short subject of interest before but could this be happening again?

Anyway I think these fear lapse might be less likely if I knew I had a prepared answer for all these what if's. Any thoughts, sympathy or similarities would be very helpful, thanks for reading my long and probably boring rant.

I totally understand how you feel. I always feel somewhat more whole when I have a major interest and lost and depressed when I don't have one, like now. I went through a Twilight phase too, and more recently Supernatural, but it has passed too and I really miss having something to keep my mind busy with. You have my sympathies. Only a few people know about my Aspergers, and I know it's hard.

Sometimes we all have changes or lapses in interests. It is part of life. The friends that you have made will probably accept your changes. It is great that you have bonded with other over your Twilight interest. Even if you are not as interested in it and become interested in something else, you may find that your friends, may share your new interest as well. Even better, you can even make more friends with your new interest. And if your old one comes back that is okay. That means you have a expanded your world in a great way. It is cool to have many interests.
Also, as for that book your writing, maybe you can incorporate your new interest in with the characters.
I wish you good luck with everything.