When I was a kid, I got spanked by my parents for bad behavior. and I was traumatized and even being yelled. I know this is a Harsh Discipline.
My mother argues at me and makes me verbally abuse her. As my parents are acting mean to me, I decided to manage myself to live in this life. I find the arguments that she makes are abusive. She threatens me to put me into a group home, which I Find it Mistreatment Which the Group Home is for People who has Severe Autism, or Down Syndrome. I want my parents out of my life. and she threatens me to disconnect the Internet. I find her that my parents aren't nice to me at all, but in some point they spoiled me. My Father threatens me to spank, and my mother threatens me to get my father to spank me. and then today, she called me ret*d, which I'm not, because My IQ level is around 100-115. I really want them out of my life. When my cousin had a baby last year, which my mother adopted him, She told me that the baby is my nephew, but I denied it, because My mother said, that my cousin was now my brother, But I denied it as a brother, but a cousin, His son will still be my cousin. Which I find Adopting your own cousin is Incest to me. I don't adopt cousins, but I do adopt children that aren't related as a Adopted son, is ok. but adopting a cousin would considered incest.
But, I spoke to a stranger about this incident, then they called my mother, then my mother got mad at me and punish me. Which it turns out that the stranger was my friend.
She forbids me to make decision, but only some, which I'm 18 1/2 years old. I am Independent person, but still live with my parents, I know how to cook, clean, and do my own laundry, and even, I know how to manage money and time and even, I have good social and communication skills. And I do take risk if I have any problems, or going into some certain situation.
I do understand jokes and sarcasm, and I know about how to make friends and handle it. and also, I don't stim. but Daydreaming.
When I told my teachers, they told me, They're just protecting you and you're lucky that they raised you and get things that I wanted, but I Find my Parents Verbally Abusive.
My Teacher Assistant was pretty nice, but sometimes, she gets mad at me, which is normal. But I get angry when they're angry.
Strict Parenting is not for me. I find My Parents Abusive.
and also My Mother calls me Spoiled little Brat. and I called her a b****. I think I should find a good parents or Suffer throughout my life until I get a Job.
I don't need a Assistant, which I can manage it on my own.
and My mother sometimes treats me like a child, when she argues at me.
After few years of my life from being Mildly Abused by Spanking, Yelling and Threats, I developed Traumatic Tics, and I get bad memories.
My mother told me that I'm a not a nice person, but I'm Not.
But everybody called me smart, but my mother told me that I'm acting like a ret*d.
My mother's close friend is like Sue Snell off from Carrie and she is nice, and I treat her nice.
When they're in the argument, I usually stayed in my room until it resolves.
My Sister thinks my mother was cranky. and I find my mother Abusive.
The Abuse that I have experienced was mild.
I don't get beatings. but threats and verbal. (Except when I was younger, I was spanked for a reason, my father is worst than my mother).
In School, some people make noises that I don't like, which is like bullying. and in this life, I feel like I'm Carrie White.
<b>When Somebody was being mean to me, I usually Revenge them, Like Being Mean to them.</b>
If my parents Argue at me one more time, I'm out the door and live with somebody else.
And In the good side of the life, I feel like I have a Communist-Fascist Views, but non-violent and abusive. And I feel like I'm Vladimir Lenin, which Autism is like living in the Communist Country.
As of the result of the Abuse, I decided to raise myself without my parent's help. She told me I'm not nice, but I was different. so, I decided to make up a spiritual parents, and they're effective to me, they're nice to me, If I'm upset, they would calm me down, and tell me alternative, it's similar to the Martial Art's Minds, but I wasn't taught, but some of Tae Kwon Do. But I managed to have High Survival Skills on my own, and even self defense skills. and I have a different view and religion. (My Spiritual Parents are like my Fairy Godparents). I feel like I don't belong to this family.
My Spiritual Parents made me to produce Psychic Abilities like Precognition and Mental Telepathy, and tells me when something is going to happen. (Short term only)
And I Feel happy.
Should I pack up my bags or get out from the house for the whole day and come back at night. or Should I stand up against my parents.
But If I go, I'm trapped with taking Klonopin due to my Anxiety, I would, take it with me. and my Minocycline so I can feel fine.
Last Summer, I stayed home all by myself with my sister, and I have no trauma and I felt Almost Independent and Happy. When my mother comes home for a visit, sometimes we get into Arguments and even Threats. But the treatment for me is, when My Spiritual Father told me to get out from the house for the while. When I visit my friend's house, I usually talked to his mother and she's very nice to me, her son is Autistic. and sometimes, I visit my NT friend's House and Hang out with her, and she's very nice until she ditched me because I'm different, because I was telling her that I'm too old for that games, I don't chase her.
If I was out alone, I feel happy, and If I talk to strangers, usually female, I feel happy, because they're nice. It's like a Secret Life of myself.
I don't have ODD. I have Asperger's Syndrome (PDD-NOS), SAD, Anxiety and Psychological Trauma.
What should I do to handle that Abuse?
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18 Dec 2013, 9:37 am
