Not entirely sure how to put it, but I find myself constantly on edge when around others, and simply terrified when alone. I have depression, and my mind easily wanders, and these traits generally help each other in keeping me from being able to do that well in school.
For the past couple years, I've also seen most, of not all, of my friends drift away painfully slowly, turning into completely different people from when I met them that grew out of anything they shared in common with me.
I feel zero control in my life. Today I have to do x, y, and z lest my situation worsen, and by the time I'm done, I am inable to do anything else. This happens every day, and I cannot see how it will ever change over my lifetime. Today I toil away for no purpose, twenty years later I still toil away for no purpose.
How am I supposed to change this trend?
01 Apr 2017, 5:26 pm
