Sometimes I feel like a burden

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I feel like a burden to my parents or other caretakers sometimes. I am not always easy to get along with and I feel bad about it. I also feel like I just sit around the house too much and people want me out of it. I have friends but we don't hang out a lot. I have so many sensory issues that probably annoy people. I don't do handshakes or back patting. I do hugs though.

Every time I am out with my family I always manage to get stressed about something or mess it up in some way. I wander off a lot because I like to walk down store aisles. I also have shoplifted before when doing that. I didn't fully mean to. I feel like that's annoying for people.

I cant even really hold normal conversations with people because I am either completely quiet or mumbling about my special interests or talking at people apparently. People tell me to speak up all the time. I hate it. I feel like they also dislike that I have a hard time with eye contact. People tell me to look them in the eye. I feel so uncomfortable with that but I try to do it to make people happy.

I feel like I require too much supervision and that I should be more independent. My younger sister is more independent than I am. I feel like my parents and teachers are disappointed in me. My parents have also been using respite services more so they can have time without me. Its kind of nice to get out of the house though. I just feel embarrassed about needing it

Don't worry. You are loved and cherished. God did not make a mistake when He made you.
You may have a few struggles. Don't feel guilty about having them. The best thing anyone of us no matter who we are can hope to achieve is to find happiness and share some around.
A train driver I used to work with came from a certain area around London. There were three staff in our depot that came from the samw area out od about 200 staff in all. One thing I remember about the staff from this area (Cockney) was that they were very happy go lucky types of people. If they made mistakes they would laugh at themselves. Now I found this to be such a good character trait to have. If only when I make the odd mistake I can have a good chuckle, it will really stop any stress from happening.
What I can say that if you can find ways of making people smile, then you are on the right track.