ME, DANIEL, POSTING AGAIN

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This is daniel. I wrote yesterday. Im writing again. Some may think of me as an oppositionaly defiant child. Some may think of me as an asperger. I see myself caught in the middle of war. Im a bad kid. I know I am. I rage too much. Mommy and daddy bring it on. I see counselors at school. Mommy and daddy never listen to them. Daddy has his own views and does what he thinks. Mommy likes the counselors but sticks up with daddy. I tell her not to tell daddy things and she does it anyway. She doesnt care about my wishes. She cares about how daddy might feel. I dont care how daddy might feel. They never get along anyway. Its war at home. Daddy complains of all sorts of things. Yells at mommy. Calls her a liar. She sticks up for me at times. Daddy calls her a liar. If he dont like what he hears you're a liar. What does daddy expect? Mommy tells him not to say things in front of me. Daddy does it anyway. They cant get along. I yell for a divorce. Mommy gets upset. She says all marriages fight. What the hell? All marriages fight? What? She thinks im stupid or something. Tells me this crap just to make me feel better. It doesnt. She doesnt know that. She keeps on it. Just split up already. Daddy now jokes about what a life ill have when i get a girlfriend. A girlfriend? A damn girlfriend? I see what goes on. People dont get along. Shut up already.

Mommy wrote about me and my drug incident. I dont take drugs. I hate meds. I watch tv. I know about drugs. I know about heroin. Theres this needle. You put it in your arm. It makes track marks. So I made some. And I tricked teachers. You know why? Cause you never get along. Never. You complain and b***h in front of me. Groan and moan about your troubles. Counselors tell you to knock it off. But you dont. Maybe mommy does. Daddy doesnt give a damn. I go to school. I am gonna make sure people respect me. I am gonna do something awful. I just know it. I cant help it. I try to stop. The impulse is too strong. I know that mentally disturbed folks get respect. They get awards. They get help. They get it from the state. They get it from the government. Normal people dont get crap. They get spit upon. I need to be sick. Daddy says he wants me to be normal. Screw daddy. Hes an introvert. A selfish pig. I cant understand how he and mommy get along for fifteen years. I have to also prepare for jail. How to deal with that possibility? I need to research stuff. Need to act out. Need to be weird. I never know what could happen. I could scream and shout one day at a cop. Then what? I go to jail. Well i need my weirdness. I want to be you know something. I need to be something delusional. Something that works in the eyes of the law. Im no dummy. I study things. Just cant always get my thoughts together nice.

Wow, isn't that a kind of cynical view? Anyway, I hope everything works out.

Hey, I can understand your impulse to stand out, I receive this impulse at times too, to yell out insane things that will get me in trouble in a classroom, and I was rather close to it today. But, what you seem to wish to plan really is not a good idea. Prison is a very serious thing, and believe me, you probably would not want to be there in the end. Fighting sucks as well, I know the feeling. I have a mother and father who hate each others guts. Screaming, bickering, it drives me insane. Sometimes it feels like a civil war in the household (Well, by phone usually now). I know this isn't truly my business, but going to jail won't help you. Do I have a clear-cut solution? No, but I hope that I can convince you not to do anything too radical. Life sucks sometimes, sometimes to a very large degree. At times the solution is not clear, I know the feeling. Good luck with your trouble.

Sounds like you need friends more then anything else. Its kinda weird yesterday you were complaining about your mom today your dad. If I didn't know better I would swear there was abuse there somewhere but you dont seem like the type otherwise, though that would add other elements to explain this.

I hate to break it to you but mentally challenged people dont fair much better in this world, the best thing you can do now is just get good grades and try to get some friends. I am here if oyu ever need me and Ive been through s**t too so trust me I understand.

Why are you preparing for jail though, trust me you cant really prepare for it and it would be best not to go there period. For a while when I was younger I always thought that I would beat someone up so bad (I raged alot too) that I would go there, thankfully it didnt happen but you really should try to control your rage. Well try writing back.

Well this sounds like my parents but with out arguing over me before they got a divorce. They had fights about money then it turned to them next. Just don't do any thing stupid (meaning stay within the law and don't run away, for god’s sake you don't want that type of trouble).

What happens, happens just try not to over think the situation but be prepared for bad news (best advice I can give you). Have you tried telling your father to lay off with talking about you? If he comes back with some smart arsed comment just stare at him for 2 minutes with a disapproved/unhappy look (well as best as you can) then walk to your bedroom and shut the door. He might get the message.

yeah, parents suck. mine fight too. the bad thing is i get involved. i think it's everywhere. just go into your room and blast really annoying music. haha but yeah times can be really hard, people can assume you're crazy, but remember that it's them. just hang in there. don't prepare for jail, why would you want to do that? it's hell in there! you'll be so much happier if you work to bring up your grades and stay motivated. motivation is the key to happiness, you'll feel so much better when things get easier. focus on schoolwork and the positive relationships in your life, it will be so worth it! and feel free to pm me if you want to talk!

pop some f*****g risperadol, man.

anti-pyschotics are right up ur alley.

Get over yourself man. All our lifes are hard, give your parents a break. Quit being so immature and grow up.

risperadol isn't all that good. It can give some bad side-effects (I don't have very good vision and I have extremely low blood pressure believed to be caused from this medience)

Different people experience different side-effects to different meds. I've met a few aspies who find that stuff works wonders. Seroquel is another alternative. Personally, if I were this guy's parent, then I'd lace his breakfast cereal with poison, and then claim he tried to commit suicide by drinking the stuff under the sink, so I wouldn't go to prison. I'd probably get away with it too, because of this guy's history.

Um, I think he doesn't deserve to die.

I wasn't saying that risperadol doesn't work, I was just trying to say it's not always the best opinion.

Really? I don't think I'd be able to make it through my day if it weren't for risperdal.

lol. I was joking.