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Sup, WP. I've always thought that something was wrong with me since I was about 11. I've went under harsh treatment by my peers in the 5th and 6th grade, but from the 7th grade onwards, I tried my hardest to act like all of the other kids. It's mental torture trying to fit in with them. To try and act normal, sociable. In reality, I don't feel like talking to any of them, they're just too normal. I don't really have any concrete interest or passion, and I often find that I get too overwhelmed by things to even want to continue pursuing them. Being this way, I've tried to act semi-normal around my family. My mom and sister always poked fun at me for staying in my room all day, calling me some kind of loner. I don't particularly enjoy interacting with them, because if I act like myself, they'd think that something is wrong. On top of that, there are only two people my age who I can actually get along with/bear talking to. Anyways, I've tried to tell my mother multiple times that I suspect that I have Asperger's. Every time I did, she shot me down and told me that I've always wanted to have something wrong with me my whole life. This is not true. In fact, I have always dreaded having something wrong with me. I don't feel like I fit in with anyone, really. Even the so-called 'nerdy' kids. I just don't feel right at all. I get overwhelmed by school work incredibly easily, yet my mother keeps pushing for me to stay in all-honours courses, which I feel pressured by. It's not that I can't do the work, it's just the fact that I can't mentally handle it. I feel like going somewhere to be officially diagnosed, but I highly doubt that my mother would approve. I don't really have anyone else in my family that could help me out with my problem, either. I would greatly appreciate any advice or input you guys could give me.