What am I ?

Post Reply New Topic

Well, im sure mny of you feel sort of like this considering you have resorted to talking on a forum to strangers with some similar attributes, however i would still like to know something, and that is what am i? The average human or any human should want to be some what social no ? They should think they are different, and in some points in there lifes, maybe even think they are bad. However i find my self not fitting into anything, i recently went to an institute, however i really shouldn't of had to have gone because im not that bad or any where near it, but my doctor screwed up, and i went there for four days and saw, messed up things, things that shouldn't be seen, or heard even mentioned, but they are in our age apparently. In light of these recent events i have come to a standing point in my life where my veiw, is as bright as it will ever be and in this moment i ask what am i ? I don't see my self ever loving or being loved by any one other than my parents, but only because of my position as there off spring, i find death to be nothing more than the end, an end in which every person will face eventually, maybe in different cases, but all the same a death, its what you do in your life that makes you different; i have met many people in my life time ( only 15 ), and have found not one to understand me, or my logic, i would rather frown upon war and violence however i am seemingly being forced to smile upon it, i have not nor plan on killing any one in my life, however if my life should run course then i will do what i will; i am called human and find myself to be human, but i feel no joy in my life only, time and even it slipps between my hands every day. I feel as though something will happen in my future that will change my life greatly, but i have no clue as to what or when; i feel lonley not unhappy, but just ok, i highly doutb any girl will find me appealing in any way no matter how braud my shoulders are or how strong and masculine i will look, this might be common amoungst other males, i don't know. That is my story as of now, i ask dose anybody else feel close to this?

Well your are part of the Try The Turtle Society for one thing. And that's something. I and buddies (when I had them) tried doing the turtle cold turkey just for fun. If you learn to do it, that's something already.

But really, at 15 you are not supposed to be anyone. You only figure out your self identity by your early 20s.

Dude everyone is someone, and you'll figure out who you are eventually. Just give it time. Everyone has to discover themselves. Most are just not consciously aware of who they are until they find what makes them happy(i.e a career, wife, kids, etc.). Just live, don't worry, and you'll find yourself when the time is right. If you're only 15 then you definitely have to give it a while. I'm 16 and I barely know who I truly am as a person, but I could care less because I know one day I'll find my worth, my meaning, whatever that may be. Life happens at it's own pace. Just sit back, relax, and enjoy the ride.

What the above posters said.

Theres not much difference between one 15 year old and the next, to be fully honest. You could think of them as each being made up from a lottery of a couple hundred attributes, making up the entire early-teen population of the planet.

I can relate to that utter confusion about everything in life. I don't think that most people could answer these things for themselves, they just don't think. I don't see anything wrong with that unless you have some strange desire to be all knowing.

No, i dont want to be all knowing, it's immpossible, if it was there would be no word for knowing

to be all knowing would eventually become boring, to see every single variable or outcome and every alternate timeline that would derive from that outcome, but as for your identityu crisis you just need to find something that defines you not just your aspergers, something else