Wow, someone else shares me feelings on the end of senior year.
I too never thought I would hate having to leave school, but im actually kind of depressed about it. Mostly because im thinking about prom. I went last year with my then girlfriend (now ex), but I wont be going this year. My "privaleges" have been revoked (missed 14 out of a minimum 10 days), so I cant go anyway, but even if I could, I dont want to just go with a friend. Prom is a special dance that just doesnt mean the same with a friend. I get depressed thinking about how ill end up graduating single or ill miss something at the senior prom. I know it sounds pathetic, but having a girlfriend is extremely important to me. I want to feel loved (beyond family) and have someone to cuddle with.
Im not so much worried ill lose contact with people, because I honestly dont have that many friends I highly enjoy spending time with. In fact, I have very few friends id enjoy hanging out with every weekend. Plus, I always have facebook and myspace to keep in touch with people.
In a way, im highly glad to leave. My school years were a nightmare. School was absolute hell for me. The constant harassment in late middle school and up through even my senior year of high school have caused me to develop social anxieties and paranoia. Not only that, but the conditions of my school are just horrible. The seats are hard, lights are too bright, temperature is freezing (they keep the air conditioning on even in the winter), teachers bore me to death with useless information, etc.
However...somehow, im still depressed of leaving. I honestly think it just coincides with me seriously longing for a girlfriend. Not just some date either, im talking about a real relatinship. Family says ill find someone in college, but since im going to an art school (majoring in video effects and motion graphics) that may be difficult. It would be difficult because I have absolutely zero tollerance to alcohol and drug users. A lot of "artsy" people seem to enjoy using drugs, getting drunk, and smoking. ...actually, a lot of people are like that but thats also in the artsy stereotype. See what I mean by paranoia? I hope its just that.